I am overwhelmed with pain right now.

 I can't bear it anymore and I just want relief from DEATH.

But if I call 911 I won't get relief for the pain ~ I will get thrown into a mental institution for daring to say the words "I can't bear this pain anymore and just want to die" so I will never be calling 911 ever again.

There is no help for me for this pain.

But I just can't bear it anymore,....