I can't write this on my other blog,...
I finally got through to legal aid. I am fucked. My ex IS going to win and my spousal support payments ARE going to end.
I do not want to be here anymore.
I am finished with this life. I've been struggling for over 20 years and nothing has changed. In fact, now it is going to get WORSE!!
I want to end it. I don't know how but I want to end it.
I no longer want to be alive. I refuse to beg just to exist.