I need HOUSING!

 Affordable HOUSING! 

But all anyone can do is refer me to mental health resources. WTF?

So this tells me that there IS NO HOUSING for me.

In absolute desperation I wrote this as my post on Facebook today: 

When did we become so disaposable? I have been looking for housing for over 2 years. Not just in Ontario but anywhere in Canada that I can afford. I have come to the conclusion that there just isn't any. There is literally NO affordable housing for the poor in this country. So I have decided to end my life. I am too old and too disabled to live under a bridge. if my country has declined so bad it can't even house people anymore then I am not going to live homeless just becasue my country failed. I go to BC the first week of July to go through MAiDs to end my life. I have tried for two years!!!!!!!! But Canada wants me homeless. What kind of country leaves it's seniors to go homeless???? I am opoen to any help to find housing ~ but after 2 years of looking I just don't think there is any anymore,... I am so sad and disappointed that there is no place for me on this planet and noone in our government seems to care,.... guess I'll just deal my way then. If your poor, your invisable and disposable,... very very sad.

Guess what happened? Yup,... the dreaded "are you ok? Here is mental health numbers to contact?

So fucking fed up of people seeing I need help and then totalling moving on becasue "noone wants to get involved" so they push a button and I get "are you ok?"

No,... I am not ok. I need HOUSING

HOUSING

HOUSING

HOUSING

NOT mental health help

I am never getting housing,....

I am never getting help,....

And I fucking resent this country because of it

Fuck you all!!!

Goodbye

I give up there simply just isn't any housing

 I give up

I have been looking for housing for two years

there just isn't any

what the hell am I suppose to do

live under a bridge?

No thank you

Either this country gets its shit together and makes new affordable housing

Or I end it all

I am so fucking exhausted looking for housing

Canada doesn't want me so time to DIE!

I have totally given up finding a place to live. For two years now I have been trying to leave this building. But I think two years of looking is enough to tell me there is no place to rent in all of Canada in my budget.

I have been priced right out of living

So now, what do I do? I refuse to live here. Yesterday I went out to the gazebo. There were about 5 or 6 people out there. When I went out - they all left. They all got up and left,... all because of Darren Green. These people are new ~ people I barely even know. The only reason I am disliked is because Darren Green met them before I did and tarnished my reputation. Before they even got to know me - I was hated. That was the last time I get embarrassed like that again. It made me feel like I smelled. I walk up to the gazebo and noses wrinkle and everyone gets up and leaves. 

Now this is not a big deal if it happens only once in awhile. But I get this every time I leave my unit. Between Arseen, Tonya, Darren, Mark,... (just a few) they enjoy making my life a misery. I am their entertainment.

A person can only take this so much before they are severely effected mentally. How would you feel if everywhere you went people got up and left. I have never even met these people. They hate because they have been told to,....

Why am I hated so much? What did I do? I am so confused as to why I am such a hated unwanted soul. My family,... my old friends,... all gone. 

I am mentally ill monster that the world hates

And because of this my mental health has severely declined and now I am just out and out suicidal. All I want now is to die. I can't take one more 'here comes Jaacquie - time to leave" it's so hurtful. And after two years of it I refuse to let them effect me anymore.

But how to die? Hanging? Slice my corotid artery in my neck? Jump into the gorge? Wait until I get to BC and just take a fatal overdose?? Whatever method I use,...

I plan to be dead and buried by September never seeing my 63rd birthday.

I just can't take the hate anymore,....

I just can't take life anymore,.....

I am heartbroken that it is going to end this way,...

But whatever happens,... I just need to be dead.

And all because Ontario Housing refuses to help me get an emeerfency transfer out of here. All this could go away if only S**** M***** just took her head out of the sand and SAW ME! HEARD me! Helped me,... but she didn't. Rules are not meant to be broken - even if I am being tormented. I have to be 'domestically violated' before they will help.

So S**** now I die and YOU could have saved me,.... sleep on that 

I fucking hate my life,...

I fucking hate my life,... 

I fucking hate my life,... 

I fucking hate my life,... 

I fucking hate my life,... 

I fucking hate my life,... 

I fucking hate my life,... 

I fucking hate my life,... 

This video has INFURIATED me ~ I just want to give up now. Canada is NEVER going to take care of it's own

THIS is exactly what is wrong with Canada right now. I came across this video and it infuriated me. This is a conversation held in parliment which means it has to be 100% true. And according to this video, Immigrants - even convicted criminals - are being let into the country in record numbers. They are given health care,... housing,... 3 meals a day,... employment counselling,... they are put into shelters and hotels,... they are given MONEY!!!! Between the federal government and the provincial government the whole bill is on the taxpayer - Us - the natural Canadian. And it's not a small amount. In 2025 The federal gov. contributed 29.8 Million and 3.2 million from the regional government. That is 33 million dollars that Us ~ the natural Canadian ~ is on the hook for.

TAXPAYERS are paying 33 million to immigrants.

Canadians have been left pushed out - homeless and hungry not even getting half of what these immigrants are receiving ~ natural born and raised Canadians get pushed aside while immigrants take our resources. Just ask how the homeless feel when they see immigrants getting housed the first day they arrive,... The list of things given to immigrants is exactly what us CANADIANS need but are refused. For some reason it's ok for Canadians to be homeless and hungry but don't let that happen to the precious immigrants. Give them everything they need and more, more, more,... while us Canadians kill ourselves living in such poverty.

OPEN your eyes Canada ~ your government has given away what is rightfully ours!!!

After seeing this video I am feeling absolutely HOPELESS! This just proves that Canadians are not a priority in this country and we will never will be. 

I'm tired of living on the leftovers which isn't nearly enough. I'm tired of being invisable.

I hate what Canada has become. I am suffering becasue of it and so are thousands and thousands of natural Canadians not getting enough food and going homeless. Canada has sold our Country to the immigrants.

Immigrants get 3 times what I get and I was born and rasied here in Canada ~ I fucking give up!!!!

I was born and rasied in Ontario. I am now 62 and living off of $1580 a month. I have NO family doctor and ive in severe pain every single day. I am on ODSP and CPP and NDB. I worked as long as I could until I couldn't work anymore due to pain. I loved working and would work tomorrow if i was physically able. But I am not - and therefore Doug Ford and our governemnt has decided that the disabled are not worth looking after so they throw pennies are way ~ just enough to breath and not starve - but not be able to thrive. We just hope we survive. YET IMMIGRANTS get 3 times what we get before they even get off the plane,.... WHY AM I STRUGGLING???? Why does my government hate me???? I can't find housing and will be homeless in a few months. yet I just saw a youtube video of an immigrant - not working - but just bought a $40000 car for cash. HOW? Why do they get money and we don't???? WHY AM I SUFFERING when immigrants get what is rightfully CANADIAN resources for Canadians. I give up!!!!! Canada has collapsed and the lower class can no longer survive.

Canada you have disappointed me so badly I can't survive. You have priced me right out of living.

FUCK YOU Doug Ford and your fucking government that seems to hate natural Canadians and loves IMMIGRANTS!

what the hell does a Canadian have to do to survive now???? Let me know becasue I am going to be homeless,....

Wake up Canada ~ Your country is gone!

I can't take it anymore. And from what I am seeing in the media,... Noone else can either.

 It's nice to see that I am not the only one crashing out and losing it over the fact that my life has become nothing but sitting in God's waiting room hoping to die soon as I CANT AFFORD TO LIVE ANYMORE!!!!

But this is starting to get really scary. People in my country are not surviving. 

But here is my rant to Doug Ford,...

He is on  this video fuming that he is not allowed to  move a homeless encampment. Heres the irony Dougy,...

You fucking put them there and now you can't stand to look at them???????

Heres a thought society,... instead of wasting all the money on your GO station and have to 'relocate' the homeless to do it???? Then forget the GO station and use that money for HOUSING!!!!!! Now theres a thought,....

WHY is there ZERO affordable housing???? And your mishandling of Ontario has put them there.

YOU caused them to be homeless and now your upset they exist and they are hindering your precious little building. 

PRIORITIES have been lost on this government. HOmeless are not people anymore they are annoying fucks to get rid of,...

FUCK YOU DOUG FORD I hope someday you lose it all and YOU are on the side of the road in a tent someday. But your protected government ass won't ever allow that. But it's ok for you to make us live a crappy shitty hollow empty life,....

WAKE UP Canada! Your country is gone