I was always taught "If you don't have anything nice to say,... don't say anything at all". Of course I'm Irish so that doesn't always work. lol But yesterday I ran into a situation where even I was at a loss for words. When I hear something "awkward" I usually just shut up. Ignore. Pretend I didn't even hear it and look the other way. So when someone asked a 'visitor' in our gazebo about his daughter he said he had her when he was thirteen. And the mother was 26. Thirteen!? Twenty six!?I admit I rasied my eyebrows but I didn't utter a word. I wasn't going there,... but trust the younger generation. A young girl immediately piped up "Ew,... thats disgusting. She should be in JAIL!" which as you can imagine made the whole gazebo stop and everything went quiet. I literally looked at the ground and wished it would open up and swallow me whole. Then I tried smoothing things over and said casually "Well I certainly don't agree with it but I guess the '70's were a different time,..." and thenI flashed my friend a look to say "shut up - this can't go well if we don't drop it" which she did. But this is what I mean by the mentality of folk here. This guy didn't actually live here. He is the boyfriend of one of the women who does live here. But he is a smoker so he has to come to the gazebo to smoke. That whole situation was very, very uncomfortable and I think if I hadn't said anything it could have gotten ugly. This happens a lot in the gazebo. Too many different age groups,... (16 to 90) different personalities,... and the age old problem of the tobacco smokers against the weed smokers. (I am a weed smoker ~ can't stand tobacco!) The tobacco smokers can't stand us in there. But we have no choice. We are told we HAVE to use the gazebo if we want to smoke ~ anything. So with so many apartments using it as well as visitors to the building, the gazebo can become a bit of a tense place. The other situation is this woman used to date a regular gazebo smoker. Now she brings her new man into the gazebo pushing our friend out as he doesn't feel comfortable. It's playground games. It's why I spent the past year avoiding it as much as I could and hibernating away insteaad for a break from it all. It can become quite stressful out there at times.
Conflicting personalities. We have so many in this building,...
I am up early today. The woman I had the phone interview with last week contacted me again to arrange an in-person interview as well. And that is happening here at one o'clock this afternoon. So as you can imagine my anxiety is at an all time high. I cleaned like the OCD Queen I am so that this morning I woke up in severe pain. I did way too much. Damn. But I will just pop a few tylenol and hope for the best. I can't vape yet as I don't want to be under the influence for an interview. I would like to have a clear and sober mind. So Tylenol will have to do. I do hope I can show just how some people fall through the cracks of this society and really suffer without health care. I'm quite glad this production company has chosen to do this.
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