Today is about Gogglebox. I think that this show is actually keeping me alive right now. I have been so depressed and suicidal. My days being so long and empty. But the one thing I make a point of doing every day is watching Gogglebox.
Earlier this year I came across a British show called "Gogglebox". The premis is,... ordinary people watching tv in thier homes. It sounds silly and boring. But it's the same people who watch the shows each week so you get to know them. I think there is about a dozen households/families they film. The series is popular enough that it will be going into its 23rd season having started in 2013. Who knew it would be a hit? I came across it accidently on the website "Daily Motion". It's just these folks you get to know each week watching tv programs. They are filmed watching tv,... with all their comments and reactions. It can make for a very funny show. Anyway,... the reason I think I enjoy this program so much aside from making me laugh so hard I pee sometimes,... is that living alone and being so isolated from society I think I see these folks as my friends. They are familiar to me. I enjoy their converstaions,... their relationships with each other,... I just enjoy the banter. It makes me feel a little bit included.
I spend every day alone now. I only leave my unit to take out the garbage, get my mail from the lobby, and maybe go out to the gazebo for 20 minutes once a day. I only go to the shops once or twice a month. So I spend a lot of time couped up here inside my apartment. Every day is loooooong. Every day is boring. Lonely. Empty. I crave human interaction. So tv gives me something to do. And some programs have just hit home for me and make me feel like I belong in a family. Gogglebox is one of these shows. The people are funny, warm, caring,... and because you see them each week it's like they become your friends. (I am not crazy,... I know they are not my real friends,...lol) But it makes me feel like I am in a room full of nice people. I never get that anymore so I find it comforting to watch these families bond over a night of staying in watching the telly. I wish I had this in my own life. Someone to watch tv with,... Someone to chat with,... theres a reason they use isolation as a punishment in prisons. It does effect your mental health not having any contact with other humans. So I have found that for an hour I can escape. It's like a night in with friends. But I think it's the humour that keeps me coming back to it each week. Sometimes I laugh so hard i can barely breath! And laughter is something I am in very short supply right now. Most aspects of my life are all doom and gloom. But watching Gogglebox,... I can laugh out loud with the rest of them and not feel so alone. This must sound terribly sad to anyone reading this. But isolation and lonliness are very powerful so I grasp on to every little thing that gives me comfort. And Gogglebox UK definitely makes me feel like comfortable.
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