I lost my ODSP on August 27th. I immediately put an emergency email into my lawyers office. The law clerk sent an email back (can't remember how long it took but it wasn't right away) asking for a couple documents and saying she was sorry this was happening to me. That was still in AUGUST. I haven't heard anything from anyone since then. I have put in two or three emails to the law clerk. I finally got an email JUST NOW saying she was on holiday and she'll talk to the lawyer TOMORROW about it. So casual,... so blase,... like I haven't been SUICIDAL worried about this. She still doens't think it's an emergency and will speak to him TOMORROW. 

I can't get answers from anybody. Nobody wants to talk to me.

I had a phone conversation with my lawyer well over a month ago. he called me ~ upset ~ becasue I was leaving my blog to public. he wanted all my social media closed until the case was concluded. I refused. And I'm glad I did. As my blog is the ONLY window I have to the outside world and the only persective I get with other people. Case in point,... my followers. I have one lady who has been following my case and she wrote a comment yesterday saying exactly what I was thinking but didn't want to say out loud,...

She wrote:

I am so sorry! This is brutal and your lawyer should have known better! I did a simple google search and it told me that odsp counts non earner benefits as income so they didn’t even do that! This is only what I would do so you can ignore it if you want. I would ask for an immediate settlement for your accident. It won’t be as much as it should be because you need the money right away. Take that money and pay off ODSP and your tax debt so you can at least get trillium and gst again. Apparently there is a way the settlement won’t affect your odsp but it has to be done right and your lawyer has already messed up. I don’t know if you want to continue using them … I did some googling and big firms like Preszler deal with both ODSP AND accident benefits so they know what to do so you can keep your settlement money. I feel so bad they messed up so much! You will have to pay your lawyer with your settlement so keep that in mind too but it might be enough to get you out of this hole so at least you can get back on odsp and pay rent and you won’t have to deal with anymore lawyers and/or assessments

Questions I have been asking myself too,.... So what do I do now? Do I wait for my lawyer to FINALLY pick up the phone and call me. I called him this morning and left a message with him that I need to talk to him right away. But so far,... ** crickets **  I am still waiting for him to call. So to summarize,.... I lost my ODSP on August 27th and to this date,... I still haven't even been able to SPEAK with my lawyers office. What should I do?

I can't help feeling like I am on a pile on someones desk wating to be seen,..... Maybe I should end this case and pay him (as I have tried to do twice already but they didn't even get back to me about it,...) Just end the cases,... draw a line under it,... take it as a loss,... and move on. before I lose anything else.

I told this lawyer in the very beginning. I have Fibromyalgai so I won't be a normal physio case. NO ONE LISTENED. They gave me the cookie cutter physio they give able-bodied people and I couldn't take the pain and ended the physio after 2 visits. ANGRY. Becasue I asked if the physio person knew about and was familiar with Fibromyalgia and she said YES. But she was obviously lying becasue if she was familiar with FM she would know NOT to manipoulate my body until I had been diagnosed by a doctor. They ignored all that and just told me start physio anyway. It ended badly. 

Then there was OT. I told HIM,... the only thing I can do is swimming. NOT physio.  He told me to get a quote for our local pool and call him with it so they could set up swimming. I called that office with the quote but noone answered and I left a message and to this day I am STILL WAITING for someone form that office to get back to me. That told me they were too busy to deal with me and didn't care,... so I gave up and gave swimming a miss. THE ONLY THING THAT WOULD HAVE ACTUALLY HELPED ME.

So I am feeling again ~ INVISABLE. This law firm hasn't even had the descency to get back to me. I am going out of my mind with worry and concern. I HAVE LOST MY ODSP - my lifeline and they don't seem to care,....

So what do I do? I need a person in my life to be a liason between me and my lawyer. because obviously I'm not getting anywhere. i wish I had a husband,... boyfrined,... brother,... cousin,... anyone who could stand up for me and get all this straitened out. Becasue I don't think they understand that this mess has me SUICIDAL.

I can't live without my ODSP. So I WILL KILL MYSELF IF I CAN'T GET IT BACK. This isn't a threat. This is necessity as I will not be homeless at 60.

I hate my life,... I hate that i'm just an invisable nobody. I'm the only person I know who got hit by a car and hired a lqwyer and ENDED UP WORSE.

I just need to be dead as I don't have the energy to sort this out.

Bye bye world,.... another kick when I was down. But this one was the last fucking straw,....