Take that Darren Green,.... you haven't won afterall!

I think the tables are slowly shifting,... Over the past few months I have met a new girl who moved into the building a few months ago. She is young (26) and suffered a horrific car accident which caused her to have a severe brain injury which is how she ended up here in "The Compound". This brave girl has had to learn to walk and talk and eat all over again. It has taken her nearly two years. But she has recovered so much. As a mother I warmed up to her. I just can't imagine waking up in a hospital with a traumatic brain injury and have to learn to live life all over again,... the woman is a miracle. I liked her right away and enjoy her company.

So yesterday afternoon I went out to the gazebo to smoke a joint. As I came out the front door I saw Darren and her sitting inside it looking very cozy. I have never had this feeling before. But the hairs on the back of my neck stood up and I got a feeling of fear. It was bizarre. I can't explain why I reacted this way when I saw Darren with that girl. It was a sense,... a feeling,... but something told me to get him the hell away from her. Which of course is easy as all I have to do is enter the gazebo and he picks up his bong and his paraphenalia and bolts. Which is exactly what he did yesterday when I went out there. But this time I was mad. HE has been running the show since last spring he and I had that terrible falling out when I called the police on him when he was raging at his cat. As I have mentioned many times before,... I was really hurt and upset and so I choose to hide away inside my unit and lick my wounds while Darren choose to go out and bad mouth me to everyone and anyone who would listen to the point that he set everyone against me. People would LEAVE when i got there. It was very uncomfortable and embarrassing. But I took it. I kept my mouth shut about what Darren did and just hide away inside my apartment instead. I didn't defend myself. I just shut up and hid. So everyone only had his side and believed him. But the tables are slowly turning. When this all happened last year, EVERYONE in the gazebo would get up and leave when I entered. He had poisoned their minds. But a few months ago I started coming back out again. I didn't want to isolate anymore. I thought it had all blown over and things would be safe again. While he continued to get up and leave when I came in, other people stopped. And the more I perservered and went out there regardless of them embarrassing me, slowly over time things got back to normal. Now, it's only Darren and his buddy Marc and Judy who get up and leave now. The others don't even notice anymore when I come in. In other words the fight has blown over and we are all moving on except Darren and his bong boys. They all make a very big point of showing everyone they hate me and I need to be dissed. In the beginning it really hurt and I was quite embarrassed about it all. But now - a year later - I could care less. Infact,... him getting up and leaving plays right into my hands. I get to sit out there and not have him there. So now he has kind of shot himself in the foot as whenever I come out he has to continue to follow his grudge and get up and leave. No one else does anymore so he is just missing out himself. I have zero respect for this man and what he does has no effect on me anymore. For the first time in over a year,... his revenge,... his hate,... his lies to slander me didn't work. People didn't care and they now all talk to me again. It's all back to normal except he has literally kicked himself out of the gazebo group. Looks good on him.

But yesterday when I saw him with Trinity, my blood boiled. There is no way in hell Darren is going to hurt this young girl. I will see he never gets involved with her. She has worked so hard to recover after her accident and is still working hard. She does not need Darren bringing her down into his dark and nasty world. I havent' mentioned this before, but just to show you how nasty this guy is,... His ex girlfriend SHOT HERSELF IN THE FACE because of him and his raging. THAT must say something about how he destroys people. I am now finding out he destroyed her life and left her in ruins so she shot herself in the face with a BB gun. So when I saw him and her sitting in that gazebo all cozy, my Mama Bear came out and I marched into that gazebo to break them up. I knew just going in there would make him leave. And it did.

There was also another guy in there at the time as well. Scott. So when Darren stomped out of there it left me, Scott and Trinity. I looked at Trinity and I gave her a mouthful. I told her everything about Darren Green. The abusing his cat,... the revenge he did on his friends and ex girlfriend,...his raging,... everything. I told her stay away from him as he is dangerous to your mental health. Luckily (and very surprisingly) Scott piped in. Apparently he hates Darren too and started telling his own stories. Wow,... if what he said is true Darren Green needs professional help. Thank God Trinity heard it all. Now,... she is warned. If she still wants to befriend him then it's on her. But I (and Scott) did our best to warn her off of him. 

You know I hate that this is what I have become. But living here with these people you slowly start to change. I don't like who I am becoming but all the hardships of poverty and pain and the bullies that live in this building have taken it's toll. I have grown a thicker skin and a sharper tongue to protect myself in this enviroment I live in. I have had too to protect myself.

So life here still isn't good. Between Darren and Tonya it's like living on a playground.I have never encountered such bullies as I have living here. It's been an eye opener. But as I have said many times,... I am trapped here. I have no choice but to stay. 

But maybe now that I have told everyone what Darren did and what he is really like (after holding it in for over a year!) things will get better. I did warn him to shut up or I would tell but he choose to tell me to "slit my throat and die cunt",... I also didn't know Darren had other haters. Now I know I am not the only one having problems with him it makes me feel better about "telling on him" to Trinity. Honestly,... it had nothing to do with gossiping and everything to do with protecting that young lady who has worked so hard to get better. His ex girlfriend was so traumaatized by his behaviour that she shot herself in the face!!! Let that sink in,... THAT is Darren Green the rager. 

Normally I would feel bad for telling everyone finally. But I don't. I am just happy people will finally know what he is really like. You can't treat people the way he does and not expect us to hate you for it. But he doesn't learn or ~probobly more accurate ~ he can't control his raging and it ruins everything for him. He definitely needs help after what Scott told me about him. Now I definitely don't feel safe living in this building.