I don't know who I am trying to fool. Probobly myself. Becasue I have done nothing but look for help and today I realize help like that is not for the likes of me. People like me never get what they need. I am what Tonya so poetically called a "welfare whore". A poor people down on the bottom dont' get what they need. We get the crumbs that fall off the table from the rich.

I got hit by a car and one year later I am STILL struggling. NOONE cared to help. I was left completely on my own to take care of myself ~ when I couldn't. But noone was there to help. Not my children. Not my family, NOONE. But I managed.

But instead of help - or at least being left alone - I was bullied by the woman whos frined hit me with her car. 

Welfare whores like me? We dont get. We don't have money,... we don't have insurance,... we dont have ANYTHING. 

This is the difference between the rich and the poor. When Hayley was in the midst of her addiction,... her RICH father (my ex-husband) PAID to have her go to private treatment that would have cost abot $30 to $40,000.00 (The same as what I need). She not only didn't appreciate it,... she used when she came out. But she at least HAD THE CHOICE and she HAD THE TREATMENT CENTRE. 

So rich people and people with insurance get what they need in life and people like me,.... the welfare whores and the white traileer trash are invisable and dont' get.

I spent ALL DAY yesterday looking to find me treatment. But unless your rich or have insurance you get NOTHING. Oh wait,... you get HOMEWOOD. And as we all know I REFUSE to ever step foot in that hell hole again. 

So in my life I have two choices. Homewood or suicide,

And we all know I refuse to do Homewood.

Thanks world for making me feel like an unimportant welfare whore who deserved nothing.

People like me dont get help,... we get left alone and kicked in the teeth when we're down.

If you think I am hanging around to be Tonyas playtoy,...,with no help for my accident,.... then think again.

I'm done being an invisable nobody.

We are back to suicide. Becasue thats all thats available for the poor and white trailer trash