It's planned

 It's planned

I looked into planes as well as the trane to get to BC. I would love to take the via Rail but with my needs I would need a sleeper cabin and that is way too expensive. So becasue I would be stuck in a seat for 5 days without a bed,... my fibro couldn't handle that. So that leaves the plane. I have actually flown this route before. Toronto to Vancouver. It's about a 5 hour flight. My fibromyalgia can handle that. If i book early enough I can get a ticket for a great price. ($500) although I know from being a traveller in the past that there are many hidden airport costs. So I know to keep aside an extra $300 just for the hiddens. A Motel is going to run me about $1000 to $1500 for the week. So it looks like I will need at least $2000 before I can book the plane. This is feasable. I can do this,...

I haven't been on vacation in 25 years. So that is why I am taking the time to save enough so that I can have a bit of a vactaion. It's a shoe string vacation with no sightseeing and living off of Ensure drinks and tea and toast,... but it's do'able. I can finally have my vacation. 

So I have been looking into Motels. Oceanfronts are so expensive so I will have to go more inland I think. But I can do that. I can do this whole thing. And I have to admit that since I have made the decision to do this,... I have felt relief. I feel as if a huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. Now that Iknow this 'idea' has been put into action, I feel better. NOW I finally have a plan to end this misery.

I have been to BC many times. It is gorgeous. My Mom and Dad lived there. My half brother still lives there. My adoptive Dad's family all live there so I do have ties. I even have the name of a cousin just incase an emergency arises. So I am not going into this blindly. I have OCD. It is my nature and character to make lists,... to budget,... to get the best deal,... to plan,... I CAN do this. And now that it has been decided for sure. I am actually enjoying planning it. I don't need luxury. I never have. I just need a locked door and peace. The rest will fall into place. 

Knowing I will never have to deal with that Karen down the hall has left me euphoric. It's sad I had to die to get away from her, but I did. I got away from her. I wonder who her next victim will be?