The nasty welfare whore is gone

I am lying in my pit ~ rotting ~ waiting to die.

And once I'm gone,... my family will cry. They will look at each other and say,..."tsk,... tsk,... she was so mentally ill,... and her suicide just proves it,..." 

And they will say,... "We wanted to help,... but she wa just too ill and we needed to self care,...."

And they will say,... "I didn't know,... I didn't know she was struggling so much,... I would have helped if I had known,..."

And it's all bullshit. If my family loved me and cared,... even from afar they would take the effort to know how I am doing. I know this becasue I love my daughters and even from afar,... I love them and worry for them,... and hope they are happy. But my family just dumped me. Cut me off. Told me I was too sick to be loved. And they turned their backs and claimed self-care. They didn't WANT to know how I was doing. Becasue once they dumped me,... they didn't care. They didn't want to be INVOLVED. It was too good a vacation NOT to have Mom around. So they cut me off and moved on and they have NO CLUE what my life is like. They think they do and they tell everyone why I am where I am and I basically deserve it.

So with that in mind,... fuck you all.

I'm done.

I am not going to lie in this bed rotting for thenext 20 years becasue my family thinks I'm a mentally ill monster.

If I'm not good enough to be in peoples lives ~ the don't fucking come crying when they find my hanging behind my bedroom door.

You can't treat people like they are monsters and then invisable and not expcet them to be hurt ~ devastated. 

I have been left alone. Becasue I am mentally ill.

I feel like the biggest worthless piece of shit that was ever born.

And now,... I stop at NOTHING to end my life and knowing you were not good enough for ANYONE.

Fuck you world 

Not one of you has the right to CRY. because every single one of you in my family could have reached out to see how they could have helped. Even if just for a shoulder to cry on. But nothing,... ***crickets ***

Don't worry daughters. You never needed me anyway. Your Dad had a new Mom lined up after he left and TOOK YOU FROM ME. And now SHE is your MOM, So I guess you don't need me, do you? You won't be left with any financial bills. I have money put aside for my cremation. You won't even be involved. I have left a note saying no next of kin. Just cremate and toss in the wind adn I'll be gone and sone forgotten. To the point that Jacquie never even existed,...

*** poof ** the nasty welfare whore is gone,....

Rejoice,... rejoice,.... the trailer trash welfare whore is gone ~ someone better come and take out the trash