Although I knew this day was coming, it actually took me by surprize today when i didn't right away remember. But now I do. It was one year ago today that I was hit by the car. And I have to say that any healing that has been done, was done through time and not doctors. Obviously most of my smaller issues have declined and some eventually disappeared altogether. But there are other injuries that are the same today as they were the day the car hit me.
The ocmplication of this accident was my fibromyalgia. If I didn't have this condition, I probobly would only have the arm and hands to deal with. But instead, this accident caused my fibromyalgia to flare up and to this day,... I have never gotten it back to what it was before the accident. So my main problem has been pain caused by my fibromyalgia which was accerbated by the accident. Without a doctor or a physiotherapist who understood fibro,... my condition remained bleak. One year later,... and the pain has been so relentless that I have been suicidal.
And add on to that the pins and needles and numbness of my right arm and hand and life is just uncomfortable ~ all the time. It has effected every single thing I do in my life. And thorughout this past year I don't feel like I have healed properly at all. I think I will have these deficits for the remainder of my life.
So I think of February 7th 2024 as the day that marks the beginning of the downfall and end of my life. Before the accident I was independent and could take care of myself much better. Now I can't even get groceries. The pain of walking is just too much now. I can only do short distances and getting groceries and bringing them home on my walker is just too big a chore for me to do now.
So now I dont' get out. And I have become agoraphobic again. I am now a recluse with no life.
This accident changed my life completely. The lawyer can't help me as I have very few medical records having no doctor. So there will be no settlement. With no medical records you can't prove anything.
I feel like I got a raw deal.
No doctor,... a lawyer who barely knows I exist,... and no family or friends on top of a woman who will stop at nothing to get me evicted.
This past year has been the hardest year of my life. I need a break,... I need a relief from pain,... I need the threat of eviction removed,... I need a doctor,... but none of these things are coming.
And this leaves me sad and suicidal. I have no idea what to do from here on in. I am lost. I am broken.
And I could really use a hug,....
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