This blog allows me to see my stats on how many peopole are reading this blog. It is divided into two categories. The number of visitors that clicked on your blog and the number of views each post got. So for the most part the visitors is always a lower number as the views means they must read 4 or 5 posts per visit to the page. This is my usual standard and has been since I started this blog.
But today,... something is different. And I have seen this over the past two weeks. Suddenly my views has skyrocketed into the hundreds. This means one of two things. Someone has decided to read this blog from start to finish averaging about 150 blog posts per day. OR,... housing or Tonya is printing it out. Becasue NEVER have I ever had so many views before.
As I have said many times. I do not have this blog for likes or follows or subscriptions. I have this blog because I don't have microsoft word. I need a place to vent every morning so I choose a blog site. I didn't need or want viewers. But over the years a couple of people found it and related. Others suffering with mental illness. A few contacted me over the years to say they don't know how to write or explain how their mental illness effects them, so reading my blog helps them to not feel so alone. THOSE folk I don't mind reading this blog at all. These people are not out to hurt me in any way. They are just fellow mental health sufferers who feel better knowing others go through the same. It's just a connection for comfort I guess.
So you can imagine how upset I am that Tonya and housing have found this blog and are using it strictly as evidence to hurt me. It means this blog isnow tainted. It is not what I had intended it to be for. It went from my struggles dealing with mental illness to writing to protect myself from Tonya Halls. It became an evidence log. She did this on this day and here is proof,... so the whole concept of my writing changed and not for the better.
And over the past few weeks I have seen someone read or print this whole blog. Who is it? And why? I don't think my writing is so riveting that strangers are going to take the time to read about it. Realistically,... I am just not that interesting a person and this blog is just out and out venting. It's not creative writng,... it's me vomiting my stress every morning. It's not entertaining,... and it's not exciting,.... so why is someone printing it out??? I'll tell you why,... they want it to use against me. it's either Tonya,... housing or the insurance company for the woman who hit me. yes I thought this was very far fetched that an insurance company would care about my life but I have since been told that they are quite nasty about trying to prove people are faking their injuries and apparently hire phtographers and private detectives to catch insurance fraudsters. I was a bit surprized that an insurance company would go to such lengths but I guess where payouts and money is concerned having someone follow me could actually be feasable. But common sense tells me ti's probobly Tonya or Housing.
My life is so bad I have people who are literally OUT TO GET ME. Tonya wants me evicted and will stop at nothing to make that happen. Now housing reads my blog. Can I just ask,... is it appropriate for an institution like Ontario Housing to read a personal and private blog about mental illness? I'm sure it's not illegal,... but really,... for an instittution to stoop so low as to use a private blog aobut menatl health struggles to evict someone seems a bit extreme and rather cold. So if it is housing who is (as I write this) printing out every page of this blog from the beginning,... why? Doesn't that seem a bit inappropriate and intrusive? To use a blog to evict someone? thats a bit cold.
But I honestly think it is Tonya. And if it is ,.. this just proves the level of stalking this woman is at. NOONE needs to print this blog out ~ but me! It's about ME. And noone else should even care about what I write unless they are mentally ill themselves and are just part of this little community. If your not menatlly ill and you are printing out thsi blog ~ YOU ARE STALKING ME! Am I wrong? Is it not creepy that a stranger is printing out a 15 yr old blog?
I'm a bit creeped out. When you don't know WHO it is and WHY? It's concerning. I can't help feel that someone is planning something. Tonya who knows why she wouldneed this blog printed but housing? it could only be to sue me for writing about them.
Whoever it is,... don't you think your taking it a bit too far? I am a nobody in this world and my life is not interesting in the least. Infact it must be boring to read daily how I struggle with this illness. So knowing someone is reading or printing out this whole blog has left me very very uneasy. It can only be for bad reasons. Somewhere down the road I am going to be hit with a nasty surprize. Either Housing or Tonya or the insurance comapny is using this blog as evidence for soemthing and it is going to come back and haunt me.
If it is you,... contact me and let me know why your so interested in my life,... becasue for 15 years I had stable stats that showed I only had NICE followers. it wasn't until TONYA entered my life that this blog has been used against me.
I refuse to stop writing. I will not be gagged. But I will be dead by summer so do your worst,... sue me,... whatever it is your printing this blog out for ~ go ahead. I have been through hell already and have the t-shirt. NOTHING you do can hurt me now becasue I will be dead by June.
Then,... maybe you can take what you printed and publish it. let the world know what happens to the mentally ill in Ontario Canada,....
You don't survive
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