Well heres one for the books I wasn't expecting

Well here is one for the books. I was doiong my usual morning routine when I got messaged on my Facebook profile. Not my usual profile but a game profile I have where I only use it to play a game. Well I did years ago but stopped a few years ago. Now it is just an empty profile sitting there. Every now and then i go on it and just delete all the messages, etc,...

But today, I had a message from a man asking if he would like to become friends. Normally these are scams and I can spot thema mile away. But this person actually lives here in my town. On looking at his profile he seems to be legit. An older guy,... works for a living,... seems to have family and friends,... so I chat with him. I warned him he has caught me at my lowest and actually said "I'm not really dating materail right now" but he didn't seem fazed. So we arranged to meet up for coffee. 

I am terrified. 

Poor woman don't get the same beauty routines that normal woman get. I only shave once a month as razor blades are so expensive. I call my razors "spnge-worthy" an old clip from an old Seinfeld episode. I only use them when absolutely necessary. I dont even get real haircuts. I just cut my own hair. I bend over at the waist and cut the ends off. Voila,... haircut. I dont' even wear nail polish let alone go for expensive manicures or pedicures. So I don't get the polishing that other woman do. I am 100% natural. I dont' wear make-up. I am a tom-boy plain Jane.

So i am terrified.

I have not been romantically involved with a man in years. I have had no interest. I have always felt like I have nothing to offer a man and until I feel better about myself I jsut thought it a bad idea to look for a relationship. I told this man all of this and he still wants to meet. He has a dentist appointment in Fergus Monday and would like to pick me up and take me out for coffee.

I am terrified

This is either a complete scam (maybe even set up by Tonya like she set me up with Pat) but what have I got to lose? He knows who I am and still wants to meet. maybe he is just a nice guy,...

But time will tell. I have a radar for bad men. I will know when we meet what his real intentions are. But I can't help think that with the way my life is right now,... what have I got to lose.

So I am going for it. i dont' feel good about myself. I feel ugly. I feel old. I feel different. But I think I need to put this behind me and give it a try.

This could be the worst decision I will make this year,... but it could also be the best,... I guess time will tell.