I have thought about nothing else as this woman is out to make me homeless. It is her goal. I just want to be left alone.
I can't believe that she has stooped so low as to use my diary to get me homeless.
I have never in my entire life met someone so obseessed about me they won't leave me alone. NEVER.
My blog is not connected to my name. (or at least it never was) It was annonymous. Just because of the material. Me struggling with mental health. I felt I could write much more honestly if noone knew who I was. And this worked for over 10 years. If you wanted to you could do a deep dive and figure out who wrote this blog,... but my name was never mentioned in any posts.
So Tonya would have had to do a deep dive on google to find this blog. THAT IS STALKING.
So I think with housing giving me yet another threat of eviction, I think it's clear I am not going to win. This KAREN is never going to stop until I am dead or evicted.
She has hurt me so bad that I am now making plans to end my life to ESCAPE her.
Becasue I am poor, I don't have any choices. I have not got the money to move as all other rents are way too high. I am only bringing in my CPP (after the accident insurance money stops soon) of $851.51. And we all know it doesn't matter where you live rent starts at $1500 - and thats for a shitty place. A half descent clean place will run you $2000 a month. I don't even make HALF of that.
One of the biggest frustrations in my life right now is the fact that I am trapped here. My solution to drama is to walk away. I have done that. But it's not working. She is attacking me at every corner,... calling housing, calling the police,... and I have HIDDEN from her since SEptember yet she is still causing me drama.
But to go out of your way to read my blog and then print it or screen shot it whatever she did and then send it to housing?????? This shows a level of revenge or stalking or whatever you want to call it - that is never going to end!!!! This woman hates me and will not rest until I am dead or evicted.
So I guess thats what I have to do. I refuse to stay here any longer and be this KARENS entertainment. I already have a shitty life. I already have nothing,... so why does she have this need to destroy me completely?
I spent all day yesterday on the internet making plans. I AM NOT STAYING HERE. I( am not rolling over and letting this cunt make me homeless. I am taking action.
I have looked at flights,... at hotel,.... at everything I need to get to Vancouver to find my mothers grave and then fentanyl to end my life.
I find it so sad that this is how my life has ended up. I am selling off my canvases. (Led Zeppelin, Janis Joplin, Bruce Springstein,...) they were about $150 to make but they are useless to me now. So I have listed them and I hope to get a few bucks. I started going threw closets throwing away a lot. By the time I am ready to fly to BC,... my apartemnt will be pretty empty. Probobly just furniture.
And as I am throwing things away,... I am sad. I am literally sitting her throwing my life away. I have nothing of value. Most of my furniture is broken so can just be thrown out. There is a lot to do before I go. I am tying up paperwork,.... deleting and closing accounts,.... and by the end of March I hope to be dead and buried.
I tried in this life but how can you live when someone is out to make your life a misery. And housing and the police fall for her every time and I end up the bad guy. I have had enough and am not going to play anymore. But sadly,... with no money or a place to go,... death is the only escape.
I already have the money. By selling off my canvases I will have about $2500 for the trip. Enough for a plane ticket ~ only one way ~ a motel for a week. Enough for food and other hidden expenses. By the day of my flight,... I should have about $3000. So I am planning to FINALLY have a vacation. I want to go to Tofino. Stay there for 6 days and just enjoy life FINALLY. No stress,... no worries about money,... no TONYA fucking HALLS,... just peace. And then I take a taxi into Vancouver and go to the dowtown eastside where drugs are basically on every corner. If you google this part of town it will tell you it is so bad the police don't even patrol inside it. It is just a square of streets full of drug addicts under the influence.
I actually have a cousin who did exactly what I am about to do. (Jay) He lived here in BC but he died a few years ago from a drug overdose. I have no idea whether it was intentional or an accident. I had forgotten about this until I started making plans. How eerie that both of us will die here. But drugs and alcohol are rampant in my family and we are not the only ones to die of overdoses. My family has had it happen over and over again. It is the curse of the Holyoaks I think that we are all addicts of some kind. That more than a handful of us died becasue of it is quite sad.
So nothing is going to change my mind now. TONYA the cunt will always be thinking of me as her prey and she will never give me peace until I am dead. There is absolutely NO FUTURE for me. And now that I have started these plans,... I am actully relieved and feel better. To know there is an end in sight leaves me feeling peace.
Now I have something to look forward to. A vacation which I haven't had in 25 years, as well as fianlly dying.
Thats how sad my life has been. My only goal right now is to be gone,... to get Tonya fucking Halls out of my life. And if I have to die to do that,.... it will be done.
Bullying kills,....
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