I'm going to finally do things MY way

 Going to BC,..

I will not let a 400 pound oompa-loompa dictate a miserable existence here,... I will not let this gossip hold eviciton over my head,... I may not have anywhere to go,... and I am beyond poor,... I may have had all my choices taken away and have no more control over my life,...

But I am NOT going to linger for the next 20 years - invisable and miserable.

I will go out MY WAY.

I will go out in a vacation of my dreams,... and I will not come back to my prison where housing is held over my head,... where a gossip can have me evicted,... where I stare at a tv all day in complete boredom,... worthless and invisable.

I will not relive my grandma Ida Holyoak ~ who lingered in a care home for 20 years - forgotten. I will not face that same curse,...

My one and only choice in this life that is still mine,... I will go out MY WAY - in MY TIME. 

And I will have the vacation of my dreams as the dessert before I go,...

You can stomp on me world,... you can kick me when I'm down. But you can't keep down the spirit of this girl,... I have one choice left and I will use it. I am worth it!!!! Even if noone else believes it,... 

I have two choices. i can live a life where the government tells me what I can and cannot do,.. who hold housing over my head as punishment for vaping,... I can live in poverty and pain and lonliness where noone even knows I exist,...

or

I can have the vacation of a lifetime and then go out with a smile,...

I choose to smile,...

Now I just have to plan it.