I think I'm finally done and I really need to die

 I am so depressed tonight I can't even function anymore.

I spent the whole day in bed watching tv or sleeping. I have turned into a slug. I needed a shower but I couldn't find the energy. So I filled up the bathtub and lay in there until it ran cool. Even then,... I struggled to get out. I have no energy left,...

My hernia is attacking me again. I need a doctor so bad,....

I just want to die

I just want to die

I just want to die

I just want to die

I just want to die

I jjust want to die 

I just want to die

I am seriously empty and at the end and I just need to die