It's not even 6 o'clock in the morning yet. Brand new day of a brand new year. 

But I am not good. I didn't find the courage and now I am still breathing

I am so disappointed in myself.

You have two choices ~ Live a long life of pain and poverty and lonliness or kill yourself and get it over with. Thats all you need to do is kill yourself,

I don't want to go on. 2025 holds nothing but struggle and sadness.

I need to try harder to find courage.

I do not want to be alive. And I am angry and resentful and sad that I am,...

I just need to die.

Die

Die

Die