Fuck you world I'm done

I am so sick and tired of being "flagged" as mentally ill. Because once you are ~ you are no longer HUMAN. You are mentally ill and therefore every time you are dealt with you are right away DANGEROUS and UNABLE TO THINK RATIONALLY FOR MYSELF ANYMORE. So THEY have to come in all heavy handed to "save" me. It's bullshit.

And they decide this all before they even knock on your door. So your not even human by the time the cops have been called. When this BRAD guy called - supposedly for high blood pressure ! then why would the police be with them if it's just high blood pressure. They bullshit me. They told me they called for high blood pressure wehn infact they had sent out both police and ems becasue they had ALREDAY DECIDED I was mentally ill and needed to go to homewood. Why else would th police have been with them? If someone else had high blood pressuer no polive woudl be involved but becasue it is ME - th epolice have to come too. 

This is discrimination and triggering and there is noone I am ever going to be receptive to help when it is offered so heavy handed. What the fuck is wrong with this town and this county? 

So what they don't understand when they are trying to "help" is that once you bang on my door and announce you are cops I am already closed up tight and will never listen to anything you have to say. That loud bang on my front door triggers me so badly that I right away go into "I'm fine go away" You have triggered me so badly by just being sent to me that already I can't talk to you. I am so triggered that I cant hear you. I can't hear you,... I can't do anything but panic and just keep saying I'm fine please go away,... I'm fine,... please go away,.... I could have been in the middle of a heart attack but because I was so triggered I couldn't accept anything but NEEDING THEM OUT OF MY APARTMENT before they dragged me off to homewood.

I was TERRIFIED and there was NO WAY I was going to listen to anything they had to say. I know from experience that THEY have already decided what is going to happen.

Not this time ~ Fuck you guys with your cops and ems,.....

You have triggered me so badly I will never ask for help again.

BRAD I don't know who the hell you are but you did everything WRONG> Your stomping in with your boots over my life and demanding that I get help was not only the wrong way to go about it but you need a refresher course in how to deal with your clients. becasue with me,... instead of treating me like a NORMAL person,... you treated me like I was a mentally ill monster. Becasue of you _ I am so spooked I will never ask for help again.

Maybe you guys COULD have helped me. But we will never know now becasue they way you deal with mentally ill patinets is wrong and I can no longer TRUST you or your organizations that so called HELPS people. You didn't help me - you triggered and traumatized me into never speaking to anyone again as I feel I can no longer trust ANYONE.

Go back to schoold Brad and learn that mental people are just people and dont' need to be attacked by cops.

FUCK YOU - now I want nothing more than to be dead.

Life definitely has NO HOPE NOW so all I need to do now is DIE>

I dont need fentanyl - I'm so angry I can just hang myself.

I NEED to get off this planet before these damn people finally get me and haul me off to HOMEWOOD becasue apparently THAT is the only health care I am getting,

FUCK YOU WORLD - I'm done. Not going to hang around to get triggered like that ever again,...

FUCK YOU WORLD - I"M DONE