There most definitely IS a stigma attached to being mentally ill ~ I lost everything!

 I know I wasn't perfect. Infact I was far from it. I was mentally ill. But I didn't expect to be 61 and completely on my own. This society likes to say that in 2025 there is no longer a stigma to mental illness. And I found people were good to me ~ when I was healthy .But when I wasn't,... I was on my own.And not only on my own,.. but the doors slammed never to open again. I LOST MY CHILDREN becasue of mental illness.

So don't DARE say that there is no stigma attached to being mentally ill because I lost my CHILDREN,... my family,... my home,... my job,... my friends,... I lost EVERYTHING. But most of all I lost my dignity. 

Lets be REAL honest here folks,... 

NOONE wants to have a mentally ill person in their family,... or their life,... they pretend they do but mental illness brings "stuff" noone wants to deal with. When mental illness gets REAL,... the world disappears,...

I'm sorry I was a disappointment to my children and family. I did try,... all I can say in my defense is that I always had good intentions and I did try,.... it just never seemed to be good enough for people to want you.

But now it's time to accept that noone is coming back into my life and noone is coming to save me from this hell-hole I exist in. 

NOONE IS COMUNG,.... NOONE CARES,... Your too mentally ill and past hope.

It's sad. Even in the end, all I asked for was a peaceful and humane death (through MAiDs or fentanyl) but noone found the empathy to help me there either,... MAiDs was a complete disappointment and I can't find fentanyl. So sadly I am forced to have a painful death - hanging. But I guess thats fitting for my life - painful

YOU are a MENTALLY ILL MONSTER and you just need to die!!!!!

Why the fuck do you think your alone???? Because noone likes you,... noone wants you,... your a mentally ill monster that just needs to DIE!!!!

So,.... goodbye,....

I have done the world a favour and disppeared

Now noone has to deal with the horrible mentally ill monster!!!!

My biggest regret ~ never meeting my granddaughter,... that broke my heart