I know,... I know,... i just wrote. But I am calm now and I have had time to think. And this is what I have come up with. I can't let people like Tonya Halls get under my skin. They aren't worth my time.  

I don't know what has gone wrong in HER life that she has become someone who not only kicks people when their down but has her own son doing the same thing right by her side. 

Anyone reading my blog can see I am clearly broken ~ on my knees ~  struggling. At my wits end ~ want to end my life ~ broken. And to know that a lot of it has been brought on by the car accident where her friend was the driver who knocked me over and caused all the pain and numbness in my arm and hands. For her to read how broken I am and STILL keep reading my blog and use it to MOCK ME ~ is pretty low.

As I have mentioned before I grew up in a Christian home where we reach out and HELP those that are in need. I wasn't taught to stalk the internet to find any social media you can like my blog to get as much information as you can to use to hurt me. I honestly have to ask why? I don't understand this thing where you can see people hurting but you go up to them and figuratively kick them in the teeth while they are down? I don't understand how this is pleasurable for someone.And then to include your son in this and teach him to do the same??? Your teaching him to hate,... your teaching him to be nasty. Your 20 odd year old son mocked a 61 yr old grandmother who had been hit by a car and is really struggling. And you taught your son to mock me. 

I think this says far more about YOU then it does about anyone else. 

You are really hurting me. You not only don't care but you think it's fun. The more I hurt - the more you laugh and do it again. What are you lacking in your life that you need to hurt people???? Why do you need to talk about people? Why do you need to instigate? 

You have this constant need for attention. But you don't care if it's negative. 

I want you to serioulsy sit down and ask yourself,... why are you being so nasty to me?????? Why can't you just leave me alone?

I would be ashamed if i said what you said to a 61 yr old woman recovering from a car accident and really struggling. And to say it infront of my child?? bad parenting. To encourage that behaviour from him is sad,

Infact I don't hate you anymore Tonya. Infact,... I feel really sad for you. You must have something really broken and wrong in your life that you need to hurt people. 

STOP reading this blog. You are not my friend. And this blog is about my deep and personal battle with mental illness and the hardships of my life. It does not concern you. I write it for others suffering with mental illness. And i don't mind being vulnerable if it helps someone else with this horrible illness. 

But for you to to take someones deep and extremely personal thoughts and use them to mock them out loud infront of everyone makes me see you as sad. 

Maybe you need God in your life. Or a man,... or something. I don't know. but you need to take a good long look at yourself and ask why you need to be so hurtful.

I am offically brushing my hands of you,....

You no longer exist to me,... I no longer hear you or care,....

as it comes from someone who is deeply sad and troubled.

And thats an opinion I don't care about.

So do your worst Tonya - it is only showing you up for who you really are.