Theres never going to be a happy ending for me.

There will never be any fun days anymore,... just empty

theres never going to be money - just poverty

Theres never going to be a docotro just pain

Thers never going to be a family - just lonoliness

Thers never going to be anything for me in this life but red tape and pain andnegativity

I am broken and still "The Karen" reads this Very VULNERABLE PERSONAL Blog and uses it to torment me.

There are no friends - just Tonya = being a nasty piece of work using my blog to hurft me. The one thing iun life I havd left - this blog and she used it against me to the point I can't even leave my apartment

There is no future for me

Just NOTHING

It really is time to do it and do it now 

no fun no money just an invisable poiece of shit that should have never have been born in the the first place

And I have to know that what I have just rwirtten my innermost deepest thoughts will be around the building by dinner time becasue Tonya will laugh at it and tell everyone

i don't even have privacy or dignity

It is time to die

This time Im doing it folks,... I'm just too tired to fight the karen,... fight the system,,,, and still get nowhere

It's just time to die

And the sad part - I don't even feel right now I am so empty and numb and suicidal

It probobly wont' even hurt

I cant even feel anymore