I have tried and hanging wont' be the way I go. 

I want fentanyl. Hanging is scary and painful and traumatizing,..... I dont want to die by hanging. It terrifies me. I get the rope around my neck but I just can't kick the walker away.

I want to de DEAD so fucking bad ~ but I can't hang myself.

But I am in so much pain. So much fucking pain

Why won't anybody help me?

So back to the scalpel. I will sit here until I finally take that scalpel and slit my throat.

Because I have no future. In a few months I lose insurance money and I will be living under a fucking bridge. My ODSP is gone and never coming back and I have no inccome to live on. I am terrified but I can't even get my lawyer to call me back. He doesn't give one shit about me or this case and I am done hoping he will finally help. 

noone seems to care to help

slice slice slice - I JUST FUCKING NEED TO DIE!

I hate my lawyer for ignoring me - again an invisable nobody who isn't worth the time

I hate Doug Ford for thinking $1364 a month is livable - fucking LAUGHABLE!

I hate my family for writing me off

I hate my fucking life and I NEED to fucking die

I cannot go on one more fucking day in this pain

I hate myself and I hate this life 

I need to just fucking die now

I still can't feel my arm and I can't take it anymore. Its been nearly a year and I still can't feel my fucking arm!!!!! It's HORRIBLE. I can't sleep or do anything becasue I can't feel my fucking arm

I just need to die,... die,... die,....

DIE!