Well yesterday was a better day. I finally received my settlement money. But thats not the reason for the good day. It was good because I got outside. I have a friend here named Trinity. Without going into too much as it's not my business to be writing about other good people on here. So I will just say that she was in a serious car accident that left her in a coma and she had to re-learn how to do everything all over again. She received a TBI (traumatic Brain injury) and that is why she is living here in my building in the side with Traverse. (brain injury recovery patients). This woman reminds me every single day just how far she has come. From a coma - to walking, talking and living life. I use her for inspiration. What I went through was nothing compared to what she had to do. So on days I feel hopeless - I hang out with Trinity. The woman is amazing.
So yesterday I wanted to walk into town and look for things I needed for my apartment. So we walked all over Fergus yesterday. And it felt awesome. My body has strengthened so much over the past few months so my walking is great. As long as I don't have to stand I am fine,... Trinity is much younger than I am so she teaches me all the 'young kids' things. Yesterday, she embarrassingly taught me how to use wallet pay on my phone. Who knew you could pay for things with a tap of your phone?? So in some ways, she keeps me young.
I didn't get a lot for my apartment as we were walking and couldn't carry much. But I did get a new kettle. My cupboards are still bare but at least now I have what I need. The basics. All except pots and pans. I still need those. We looked at all the used stores in town but with my OCD I admit I am very picky. It's all about germs. I have a germ phobia so unless what I buy has a hard surface I can bleach clean ~ I won't be comfortable using it. I wish I could just take anything but my stupid OCD brain just won't allow me to. Some ladies in the building had brought me some things. THAT I'm ok with as I KNOW these ladies so I don't get bothered by their 'germs'. I have been given sheets and a blanket,... cutlery,... a few other kitchen things. All which I am grateful for. My apartment still echoes when you talk as it's so empty ~ but I am slowly getting what I need.
New microwave, and kettle along with coffee maker.
My cousin had sent 2 boxes last week of my belongings (how do you ever repay someone for doing that for you??) which had my google nest in it. I need that as I find I am losing my memory. So when I cook I let "google" know and use 'her' as a timer. Infact I use Google assist for everything. Game times and scores,... the time,... so it was nice to have something familiar back. The other side of the kitchen is bare still but all in good time,...
The international break for football is over so all the leagues are back to their regular schedules wich means today is GAME DAY! I wished I had a new big screen tv to watch it all on but I still haven't bought one. For now I watch on a tv borrowed from Debra upstairs. So today is going to be sitting in my unit watching games. Nothing makes me feel more at home than watching my games all day.
It's the long week-end here ~ Canada Day. So maybe Monday if the weather is good I will walk back downtown to see if anything is going on. Just an excuse to get out and live rather than sit in my apt bored. I have decided that I don't care who is talking about who,... I just don't give a shit anymore. I am not hiding from anyone anymore. If I want to seek out some kind of life ~ I have to come out of my apartment and go outside!! Something i couldn't do before my BC 'trip'. Now 'that woman' has calmed down and is completely leaving me alone,... life is ok. As for some of the others? Immature. If they still want to get up and leave when i enter the gazebo then they can. It doesn't bother me at all anymore. Infact - it just shows their immaturity. I am not the one who ABUSED his cat - I just saved the cat by calling the humane society (and this was a few YEARS ago now) so if he can't get over that and wants to make a big scene leaving when I come into the gazebo? He can,... it actually amuses me now to see him so uncomfortable. I would never talk to him or even acknowledge he was in the gazebo if h stayed. But he is so afraid I will 'out him' by saying he abuses his cat that he has to leave but he has to tell people another reason why. He is just ASHAMED and embarrassed about what he did and doens't want others to know.
Not my circus ~ not my monkeys ~ I just leave him to do what he needs to do. I could care less about that kid. If you abuse your tiny little cat??? You deserve what you get when you do it. But I want no part of it. I love animals and I would call the humane society again if I heard him abusing his cat again. Animals don't have a voice so we have to be their voice. If him and his friends hate me for that? Then hate me. I would do it again and again and again to save an animal.
Anyway,... the weather looks awesome so hopefully I can get out in between games today to enjoy some of it. I would like to get to Walmart. They had a nice 5 x 7 area rug I wanted. These apartment units echo when they are empty and I think getting a carpet again would help that. I may try to run over there before the games all start.
I feel like I am getting my life back once again. And that can only be a good thing.
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