Completely broke ~ but still happy

I went to bed a bit scared last night. I have given myself 2 more nights but this has completely wiped out all of my money. Which means I have nothing left for food. This is why I have set up the 'donation' button on my blog (Coffee Confessions ~ I couldn't find a donation button to ad on this blogger blog) But if anyone on this blog wants to donate i will put in a link and hopefully it will work. I have never in my life ~ EVER ~ asked for money from anyone. So this has been an embarrassing and degrading thing to do for me. But I have no money left and I need to eat. So I putcap in hand and added the 'donate' button. 

I am desperate and desperate times equals desperate measures

https://jacquierose.wordpress.com/wp-admin/post.php?post=11208&action=edit 

I don't think that link is going to work but if you cut and paste it might. Sorry,... I am not good with these things on the computer.

I have to laugh because the only 'affordable' thing available to me here is weed! It grows like a weed out here. I have been given weed free because people have so much of it growing in their gardens. But food,... this is a different story. Food out here is very expensive and this is why I was going through my hard earned savings so quickly. I wish food was like marijuanna here. Everyone grows it and gives it away!

I also found a great picture of my Dads family coming to Canada from England and immigrating here to BC. Apparently the airlines took this picture as it was the biggest family to fly. My Dad is the grown lad on the top left (kind of beside the baby and my Grandad) I got the original story wrong apparently.I thought the parents came ahead and settled while my father brought all the siblings over himself. I got that wrong. Apparently they all came together via New York. I love history and I enjoy hearing about my fathers family coming to Canada. 

I also came across the tiny little cabin in behind the big house that they all lived in. I remember playing inside of that house way back in 1972. (sorry its sideways - I'm too old to figure out how to make it right lol)

I am still scared. I am still concerned for my future. But I have to say that if all of this was taken away tomorrow ~ I would still consider myself lucky that I got to come here and at least enjoy a few weeks. Being homeless aside,... it's beautiful here and I have enjoyed myself a lot. It's been like a vacation. So I am concerned,... but I figure the situation isn't going to change just becasue of my attitude. So if I am here ~ I may as well do everything I can to enjoy it. Broke or not,...

This is my fathers families home. I feel a connection here. Now if I can only actually start meeting my family,.... they are scattered everywhere around these parts. But I havne't spoken to them since 1972. There aren't any phone books anymore to just look them up and from what I can gather they aren't really on Facebook. So I guess i will have to wait until they get wind of hearing I'm here and hoepfully they will reach out andfind me. I dont' want to be intrusive. If they want to see me I am open to that ~ obviously!! But if they aren't (family drama) then thats ok too. At this point I am just happy to be in BC.