My two passions

 After my life fell apart when my girls were taken away, I survived doing 3 things. One,... pretending I had no children. I had to compartmentalize my life into sections. And to protect myself I only opened the compartment I needed to. I missed my girls so much I couldn't function. I had to put that compartment away. Then I could try to pick up the pieces of what I had left and try to move on.

For the past 25 years I have lived on my own. I didn't have many friends, I was busy working and trying to keep my head above water. Life was very tough on one income ~ and a low one at that. But I managed. I immersed myself into my two passions.

Music & Football

I have always loved music. I used to play the piano. (The Royal Conservatory of Music) I listen to everything from classical to rock. I have tried to pick my favourite song ever but I can't. There are just too many I love. Before I really hit hard times, my apartment showed this passion. I had canvases on the walls of all my favourite artists. Led Zepplin, Janis Joplin, kurt Cobain, Bruce Springstein, Amy Winehouse,... (Most of them are gone now. I've been selling them off to get money for Vancouver). Every single day I made sure I put aside one hour just to listen to music. Sometimes I am doing chores and sometimes I just sit quietly and listen. I have a lot of anxiety and music instantly calms me. Playing the piano did the same thing. I could lose myself in the music. It made the whole world go away. I would just let it envelop me. It felt like it was right in my soul. Now that I am old and my body has seized up in pain, music is my escape. When I am fully immesed, my body is young, supple,... and I am dancing,...

My second passion is football. (Soccer to North Americans). For many years I supported Manchester United out of the English Premier League, as well as the England National Team. But then in 1996 the MLS formed over here in North America. By the year 2000 I had started supporting Toronto FC (My birth place). The Canadian Mens National Team wasn't all that established yet so I didn't start watching them until about 10 years ago. So all-in-all I supposrt 4 teams. I struggle financially but I put other things aside to buy my football streaming sites. They are expensive but worth it. I watch about 10 games a week. And when FIFA is on,... don't even talk to me. I will be lost in the world of footy,...

If I hadn't have had these two things in my life over the past 25 years,... I don't think I would have survived. These two things were my escape. Music and football seem to be deeply engrained in my soul. And some days, they are all I had.