How sad a bully can push you to suicide

It is another cold morning in Ontario. Spring is so late this year. Yesterday was gorgeous out. But I was in too much pain to go outside and enjoy it. Today has gone back to cold so staying in again. There are workman coming to do some odd jobs around my apartment today. I hate when they don't give you a time. So I have had to be up and dressed and ready for 8:00am. Now that I am ready,... they probobly won't show up until late afternoon,...  

Plans are still in motion to leave here. But I will point out that because of Tonya refusing to stop reading this blog,... I cannot write the REAL date and place I will be going. I am using Vancouver and May for the purpose of writing this,... but that is not the real truth. I cannot take the chance of having Tonya ruin this for me. And she has already used this blog to tattle on me,... to try and get me evicted. So I know she will. It's not maybe,... she WILL. So I have to keep my REAL plans to myself. I dont want the police showing up to stop me. 

You know I don't know why Tonya has been so intrusive in my life. I sometimes think about it but I just can't get my head around someone who deliberately tries to get someone evicted. To make them HOMELESS! She KNOWS I HAVE NOWHERE TO GO!!!! She knows I will be homeless,... yet she continues to try and get me evicted. It's worn me out and I'm over it. I'm tired of living with the threat of eviciton over my head. She came very very very close to succeeding. Why? I don't care how much I dislike someone ~ I would never want to see them homeless. And that is including her. It's just mean to want someone to suffer. I can't figure this woman out and I never will. She is always going to stalk me and cause problems for me in life. The only way to stop it ~ is to leave Fergus. But after 3 years of trying - I can't move. I am stuck in poverty and have no money to move. I have ZERO choices to get away from this woman who just seems to get off on hurting people. WHY??????????? why? why? why? why? why?

So death is my only escape. But if she thinks she is going to ruin THIS for me - she has another think coming,... If she does call the police they will ask me why I want to end my life. And my answser will be Tonya Halls. So Tonya better be prepared for me to bring out YEARS of evidence proving she has harrassed me to the point I will be homeless if I don't escape. I will be telling them Tonya,.. pain and povery are why. But TONYA HALLS is top of that list. If I could move and get away from her,... I wouldn't have to die. But knowing my future is nothing but harrassment and hiding away in my unit for peace just leaves me hopeless. 

I wonder if Tonya realizes just how destructive she is??? I doubt it. Every time she hurts someone - she thinks of it as a knotch on her bedpost,.... she is PROUD she did it. You can't fight people who ENJOY hurting you. 

I have no choices left in life anymore. And Tonya Halls - I hope you learn something after my death. Gossip and lies KILL!!!!! But the question is,... do you care? No,... you will continue to be a KAREN and tattle and gossip and lie about someone else after I'm gone. People like you don't change - they just change victims.

So I may write where I am going and when,... but it won't be the real plan. Because of Tonya Halls I have to keep my plan secret and only to myself. You will just one day read I am gone,....