The email to my lawyer telling him I am done

 This is the email I left my lawyeres law clerk

I am so fucking done and don't even WANT to live anymore

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I have decided that I have lived with this severe pain long enough. The doctor I was referred to from the walkin clinic STILL HASN'T EVEN CALLED WITH AN APPOINTMENT. 

So I have made alternative plans.I am now going to Vancouver, BC. There is no life for me here in Ontario. I don't have enough money to survive. 

The pain is too severe to cope with and I cna't seem to get any help for it.

So I am ending my life.

I am getting a plane ticket to BC and going to visit/meet my half brother and then saying goodbye to my parents graves there.

Then I am going to the downtown Eastside and I am taking a fatal fentanyl overdose.

I have told anyone who will listen I am in severe pain but none is listening.

So now i need money to get to BC.

I have no medical records for my injuries. I have no people to vouch for me as I am a recluse now and have no friends or family. So I know I will not get what I need from this case.

NOT HAVING A DOCTOR HAS TOTALLY RUINED MY LIFE AND MY CASE

So now I just want to close out this case and I will take what little I l=get as I can't win with no medical records. And I am going to BC.

So please tell my lawyer that I want to end this case now. 

I dont care about getting better as it's never going to happen with no doctor. 

I cannot live without the use of my hands

So I am choosing to die

Please tell me what I need to do to finish this case so I can go to BC to die