I just can't do this anymore,...

I just got off the phone with the debt collectors. What a bunch of assholes. I ended up yelling "Fuck You" and hanging up. I gave them my client or reference number and then they asked for other infor. Private info. My date of birth and address. I know they don't have my address. Only my phone number and I don't want them to have my address. Then what will happen? Will I have actual people knocking on my door if I give them that? no way,... so I told them no. They can't help me if I won't cooperate. I told them it doesn't matter my date of birth or address. You have my file infront of you. I am telling you I cannot pay,... I will NEVER be able to pay,... so what happens now? I'm sick of you guys calling me 3 times a day I need it to stop. So what happens now I can't pay?

They won't answer that. They just keep asking for my date of birth and address,... so I shouted fuck you and hung up. They called back twice and those calls went about the same as the first. How do these vultures sleep at night????

So what does happen now???

Again,... I am left living under a question mark. 

I can tell you one thing that has happened from all of this,... 

I WILL NEVER CALL 911 EVER AGAIN!!!! EVER!

I didn't sleep last night. The stress of living this life has me exhausted. But I can't sleep.

I think I might have enough money now. May 1st,.... (coincidently my Mothers birthday) I will get paid one last time and then I will have enough to go.

Can you imagine living in poverty,....

Can you imagine living in constant pain with multiple health issues but no health care

Can you imagine living NOT FEELING YOUR HAND OR ARM??

Can you imagine living in complete isolation? Hiding away from life,...

Can you imagine having debt collectors calling you? Stressing you out,...

Can you imagine no family. Your family is alive,... they just don't want you in their lives,...

Can you imagine knowing you have a grandaughter you have never met and never will?

I live in complete isolation ~ talking to noone ~ hiding from debt collectors and the witch down the hall whos life goal it is to make me miserable and homeless. 

There are no postives ~ at all

Just negatives.

I think I need to do this sooner than anticipated because I am fucking MISERABLE and I just don't want to continue on,...

I need to do it sooner