F**K YOU Doug Ford! I'd rather die than live in your poverty and no health care

After a few great days, I have fallen back down to earth and I am back in my real world once again. I have been suffering from a grumbling hiatic hernia for the past few days.  Usually I just cope with it the best I can and get on with life. But sometimes the pain causes my blood pressure to soar and that is what happened yesterday. BP rose to 220/130.That is quite high. (A normal reading is 120/80)  It can be fatal at that reading. I could stroke out or have a heart attack at any time. So even though I HATE doing this,... I was once again forced to call 911.  

I knew exactly what the problem was as I have suffered with this hernia for nearly 10 years. There is nothing that can be done to ease the pain except gaviscon. Which really doesn't do all that much for me. They also give me meds to lower my blood pressure. But it has to come down slowly as if it comes down to fast I will feel like absolute crap. I know as it has happened before. And unfortunately this is what has happened. And now I am sitting here feeling like death warmed over.

I asked the doctor if he could fix the hernia so it is finally gone but for some reason he said no. (???) I dont' know why. I worked for doctors and I remember many patients having a hiatic herniz repair. So why am I being told no? My best guess? I don't have a family doctor. Noone to do all the paperwork and referrals???? I have no idea what the reason is. But lately I have had to call 911 almost every 3 to 4 months for the past 5 years. I have over $600 in ambulance bills. Today alone cost me $45 for the ambulance and $17 for the Taxi ride home. For someone with a very small budget - these costs can really become a problem. 

HOW do I finally get this hernia repaired????

I have so many medical issues and no doctor. After three great days of feeling better ~ yesterday flung me back down to earth and reminded me that MY life I don't get "good". I only seem to have struggle and pain and poverty.

I refuse to use 911 as my health care as they don't continue through with the issue - my hernia. 911 ER visits are just 'band-aids' to cover up the REAL issue.

I refuse to be left to live this way. It's not fair and it's not humane.

So sadly,... I have gone back to my original plan - fentanyl.

ROLL ON VANCOUVER ~ It can't come quick enough.

I refuse to live in Doug Fords poverty and no health care.

I am worth more than that. And if noone can help me - then I leave the stage for good,...

FUCK YOU CANADIAN government and Doug Ford,... I would rather DIE than live the life you have given me.

FUCK YOU DOUG FORD