Today has been a loooong day and it's not even seven o'clock yet. My days drag,...

But there was a highlight. My friend Becky called and we had a nice catch up. I have been in seclusion for over two months now. The only one I chat with is my cat Maggie. So it felt nice to have a somewhat normal conversation for the first time in months. To have any communication at all with anyone was nice,... It was lovely to hear how good she is doing. She is such a kind person but has had a hard couple of years. And just in the last few months things are starting to look up and come together for her and her family. But the big news is they are getting another dog. I was happy for them. A new pet is almost as big a deal as a new baby in my eyes. She sent over a few pics and hes adorable. So overall it was a nice chat and I was happy for her and her family. I don't talk to her about "my stuff" as we both know what is going on. We both know theres nothing I can do about it so she has always just been there for me as a shoulder to cry on. And I appreciate her for that. I purposely kept our conversation light and cheery. Just because I live in this situation doesn't mean I have to drag it outside my apartment. I have said before,.... this blog is my dumping ground so I don't have to with the rest of the world. I was conscious of this as I didn't want to waste our chat on crap. I wanted happy! I wanted up-lifting and cheering up and that is exactly what she did for me. It's hard to get together with her as she is quite busy as she still works full time. But we did plan a quick pop in for next week and then hopefully in the New Year a visit to her new home and see her new puppy.

See? I do try. I do want to do stuff and I do want to be with people and enjoy life,... I just can't. When you have no money and you can't do anything. EVERYTHING costs money and/or needs a ride. I don't have either. I am proud and won't ask either. (my generataion I think) So instead I sit inside wishing I had a life. Listening to Becky and her bustling life just made me happy. But a little sad too that I will never have that again. 

But,.... I will not dwell on the negative today. I am coasting on my lifted spirits from my catch up with my friend.