This is where being completely on your own sucks. I NEED HELP with my court case. But theres noone to even talk it over with. I am on my own. And right now,... I do not like my lawyer. I would walk away from the whole case right now if it didn't mean that I would get not only NOTHING at the end of it. (which lets face it I'm very used to and don't even expect anything but problems anymore,..). I asked him to phone me. HE HAS NOT. When I lost my ODSP I needed answers and emailed for him to pick up the phone and PHONE ME - not email so I could have a discussion. But he won't know what to tell me when I will ask why he told me it was alright to accept the payments even on ODSP. I ASKED HIM! He called me then and said YES - go ahead and spend the money - it's yours. I asked about ODSP and he chuckled like I was a little girl humouring him. It's fine,... he promised,.... IT'S FINE he told me. Obviously this was WRONG advice and he had no idea about ODSP and never even bothered to check.
SO I LOST IT!
Now I want to talk to him about this. But he only communicates with his legal clerk who just gives basic generic answers to me. "I'm sorry your going through this,... blah,... blah,... blah,.... " i asked her in an email which I still have and so does she MONTHS AGO that I needed to talk with my lawyer.
But he won't phone me. I can't chase him. Everyone knows lawyers charge you by the MINUTE for every email and phone call you make for his precious time. Well I obviously aren't worth his precious time. Becasue I am SUICIDAL about the loss of my ODSP and NEED answers. I have emailed for answers. The legal clerk said she would contact ODSP for me.
BUT I STILL LOST IT - as far as I am concerned my lawyer gave me wrong information that led to the loss of my incme.
If I had it my way,... I would dump this case instantly and just take a loss and move on. But I will just end up with a large bill from HIM - my lawyer for the so called work he has done already.
I need communication with my lawyer - not dissed and ignored. That has left me feeling like I'm just small fried to him and therefore not worth the time to deal with.
Again - I'm fucking invisable.
I need someone - to stand up for me and get answers for me from my lawyer. But who??? There is noone. I am alone and therefore I have to deal with this alone. becasue of that,... I have given up. I now don't care what happens to me or this case. I don't care if I end up with a bill for thousands of dollars. The irony? The lawyer himself took away my income so I can't pay the bill.
Here is what frustrates me about this lawyer. When I looked one up, I was very aware that I don't have transportation and therefore looked up someone LOCAL. A lawyer listed in the yellow pages IN FERGUS and I called. Somehow through the 'orientation' I ended up with a lawyer where I don't even know where he is. I have no idea where his office is even located. Becasue I have always thought it was downtown Fergus. But now I have since learned that he is I think downtown Toronto - two and a half hours drive away from me. So I can't even go to his office for answers.
The cookie cutter services he sent for me where out of province. CALGARY is there office. How did this happen? I need people who are LOCAL. So i feel like I was 'passed down' to another lawyer without me even knowing and then,... put on the bottome of the pile.
I am not getting anything out of this case. With no doctor records there is no proof of my struggles. And my lawyer has only offered me a doctor in TORONTO - two and a half hours away. Becasue I declined as the triop would be way too much for me alone with a walker,... I think he felt offende3d and thought fuck you,... forget it then,.... just find your own shit. And thats what has happend. Hiw OT team let me down completely forgetting about and putting in the want for swimming. The physio knew NOTHING about Fibromyalgia. And the mental health help? SHE callled the police on me!!!!!!! and they expect me to trust her and go back????? NEVER. In short I don't like their cookie cutter services that aren't even local to me. How is this helpful for me with no transportation.
I deliberately called a lawyer from FERGUS. Local to me. How the hell did I end up with a guy I have never met and who I think thinks I'm a nuicance and small fries and not worth their effort. They gave me thier 'services' and now I'm on my own.
I NEED ADOCTOR! I need medical records,... I need a diagnosis so I can finally start getting phyusio for the hands that are STILL USELESS to me.
But I am a nobody and this lawyer will just get mad reading this and dump me. I will then owe a large bill I can't pay. Add it to the pile,... all I am worth lately is money. DEBT.
Every minute I breath causes me debt.
I hate this case. I feel like I'm not even involved in it. I feel like I have been forgotten about. I feel lie I have unanswered questions they won't answer. ODSP!!!!!!!!
But I have no one to talk to about this so i give up. The lawyer can ignore me all he wants. I jsut don't care anymore.
Just another reason to feel INVISABLE,... UNWANTED,... and nothing but a fucking burden to this society.
I need advice!!! I need serious advice about this lawyer. I am ready to KILL MYSELF becasue of the loss of my income ODSP ~ and he won't even give me the descency of a phone call back. He probobly forgets I even asked for that phone call now it was so long ago.
I NEED HELP with this,..... but instead I am so alone
Whoc ares about her case? She's an annoying mentally ill client that isn't going to make us money in the first place. Humour her and give her peanuts later,....
humour her,... I have never felt more of a NOTHING than I have the past year,...
INVISABLE little NOTHING,...
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