Can't take the pain one more day

Yet another grey and dreary day. The clouds hang low leaving a misty fog draping over the landscape. If it weren't so depressing it would be pretty. But today I only see the depression. With the cold sleet comes pain in my body. And right now it is relentless. Both of my arms and hands are just aching,... this on top of my normal fibro pain has left me weary of it all. I am just sitting here ~ in pain. And no matter how many times I shift positions,... I can't stop the pain. I have tried my marijanna but it doesn't do a lot anymore. I have taken OTC painkillers but they don't even touch the pain. I have to get personal to explain this one, but one of my biggest pains is in my butt. I have NO FAT on my ass. It is flat. (sorry,... feel a bit weird writing about my ass). But the problem with this is PAIN. When I sit down, I have no fat to help with the pain. So it feels like bone on hard surface. It is quite uncomfortable. I have had this issue for a few years now. But I have noticed over the past year,... it is getting harder and harder to find comfortable positions to relieve all the pain. And today,... no position seems to aleviate it. So I am just sat here feeling defeated. 

I have an old recliner that looks comfortable but in reality doesn't fit my small body frame and therefore not ergonomically correct. It is designed for a 200 lb 6 ft 2 man. I only fit in half the chair. It doesn't fit me. And despite the comfy looking seat - it isn't. So I have taken an old bed topper that I use on my bed for the fibro pain and cut it down to fit my chair. It looks absolutely hideous. But it does give me some form of relief. Fibromyalgia is all about pressure points and I have found if you can eleviate these pressure points when you sit it helps. But it means I have the ugliest chair!

But even today,... this thick topper isn't helping. I hurt all over! And today I just feel fed up and overwhelmed with it. Can you remember if you ever had a bad tooth ache? It's like that only every single time you move your body you create pain in it somewhere. Every movement causes me pain. 

I am just so fed up. I need medical attention and lots and lots of it. But i have given up trying. They are all so hell bent and dtermined that I have to go through HOMEWOOD everytime I ask for help. So ~ I no longer ask for help. But without pain relief, I just don't think I can bear it. It's getting too relentless,... I can't concentrate on anything but PAIN. 

I am ready to do whatever I need to do to stop this pain.

What can I do to stop this pain????????

Someone please help me!!!! I just can't cope with this pain any longer,...