It's just after four o'clock in the mornning. Yet another night I can't sleep. I am in so much pain I can't think.

I am desperate to get out and get supplies but I can't. I can SEE Freshco out my front window ~ but I can't fucking get there!!!! I am in too much pain to walk anywhere by myself anymore.

I have not been to a store since SEPTEMBER. I have gotten my basic needs off of Amazon and some of my groceries through delivery but that is NOT ideal as I can't get everything I need.

I can SEE all of the stores I need to go to from my window,....

BUT I CAN'T FUCKING GET THERE!

I am trapped inside this prison.

WHY THE FUCK am I still alive when I can't even walk across the street to get food!!!!!!!

You have been thrown away and lefgt to rot and fend for yorself.

NOBODY wants you,... NOBODY is coming to take you to the store,...

Just take the god damn scalpel and slit your fucking throat

Just slit it and get it fucking done!!!

When you can't even get fucking groceries,.... you are a fcuking loser noone cares to help and noone likes you and it's time to just 

FUCKING DIE!!!!

This is not a life!!!!!

So just DIE!