Iam so done now

I woke up with my hands in so much pain I could barely use them. Myright arm - I STILL can't feel. Small everyday chores I struggle with. Brushing my teeth I don't have enough strength or dexterity to squeeze the toothpaste out of the tube. I can't put my hair up as It's so painful to do. Doing dishes,... every single chore I do is PAINFUL.

obviously damage was done to my hands or they would have healed by now. The accident was in FEBRUARY! 

I am fed up with the pain and I am not going to struggle with it anymore. I HAVE HAD ENOUGH

Dear Doug Ford and Justin Trudeau:

I have no doctor and I am going to end my life becasue life is now too fucking hard. Even hiring a lawyer has just ended up screwing me by losing my ODSP. Without a doctor I have NO MEDICAL records for this case and therefore it is impossible to make a case. I LOSE and get nothing.

I CANT FEEL MY ARM! 10 months later! I am fed up.

I am done with being invisable. If this world won't help then I just end my life.

I am going to end my life today becasue i am sick of having NO HEALTH Care except calling 911.

I AM IN PAIN and I can't take it anymore so I am ging to end my life today by hanging myself.

If help was coming - it would have arrived by now. But it's been nearly a YEAR and no health care. No doctor,... no meds,.... no recovery which leads to NO CVASE which means I am FUCKED.

It's all planned now. I've had all night to think about it as I couldn't sleep due to PAIN.

But the only way to get the pain to subside now is to end my life which will stop the pain.

I am angry today so it will be easier to do. I have no desire to be a part of a world that leaves someone without medical care to fend for themselves when they physically can't.

I have been DUMPED by mty society so they won't care when they find me hanging on the back of my door with my old dogs leash. It's all planned becasue there is NO RELIEF IN SIGHT.

I have nothing but pain and poverty.

By the time anyone gets here I will be dead.

Thanks world for ignoring me,.... all I wanted was a fucking doctor to get better,.... but I was an invisable nobody who I guess didn't deserve that,...

So don't dare turn around and say WE WOULD HAVE HELPED becasue if you were willing to help? Where the fuck have you been?

I am out of time and patience and the ability to cope so fuck you all I am done

Goodbye 

I don't know what else I could have to be heard,.... I tried for a YEAR! But I am invisable and unwanted and unloved,....

So fuck you world ~ I am done