This isn't a life just laying here in bed wishing to die. I have to do it,... this is insane. It's inhumane. If I were a golden retriever I would have been put down 5 years ago.

So right now I lie here wondering,... how?

Will you die if you drink bleach? What about smashing your skull with a hammer? Do you think someone can kill themselves with a hammer? I am desperate now and pain is not a worry anymore.

Now it just needs to be done.

Bleach? hammer? hanging? suffocation with a bag?

I dont care anymore

I just cant take this one more day