Well,... this is the end. I tried yet a third time to do these damn applications so i can BEG for basic needs but apparently I am too stupid to do them. i give up.

I have tried but I am a worthless piece of shit that is so stupid I can't even fill out forms.

So I ripped them all up!!!!! i got so triggered and made to feel so stupid that I just lost it and ripped them all up. So NO BENEFITS FOR JACQUIE!!!!!

This is just too much for me right now. I am still truamatized from BC,... still trying to restart a new life,.... but I can't. I just don't have it in me to get up off my knees this time. I am finished.

These forms do nothing but trigger me. They make me feel STUPID becasue I can't do them. I don't have the figures and documents they want,... they are TOO HARD TO DO so I ripped them up and instead I begin the end of my life.

I will stay here until November as my settlement money will pay my rent for that long. But after that,... I walk out this door and i walk to Elora and I hurl myself over the ledge and into the Gorge.

If I have to work so hard just to BEG for basic needs? Then life is too hard,... and I am done,...

Keep your fucking benefits Canada,....

I won't need them at the bottom of the gorge,...

and btw,... FUCK YOU for throwing away people to rot and making it too damn hard to get help,....

FUCK YOU

I'm SO fucking done