I am a worthless piece of shit that just needs to die

I am so sick living here. I knew I couldn't stay here the day Darren and I had our falling out. I knew he and his minions would never leave me alone. 

I knew

But I had nowhere else to go

Now,... I can't stay here. I am too triggered,... I am too upset,.... I don't feel wanted or liked here. Once Darren Green hates you - your done.

So I gave in my notice to housing. I have until October 31st to be out. I have been looking for a new place but of course there isn't one. THIS - here - where I already am - is the lowest rung on the ladder. It's homelessness after here,...

My mental health cannot cope living here. I NEED to leave. I NEED to get away from here,.... but where?????

I can't escape. I can't escape this place,... I can't escape poverty,... I can't escape pain,... 

There is NO PLACE on this planet that wants me.

And I can't stay here any longer becasue I can feel that - in every hateful glare people give me. With every dirty look,... I can feel it.

I am a worthless piece of shit that just needs to DIE!!!!!!!!