It's Christmas day. The cats let me sleep in until 6:30 so Merry Christmas to me from Molly & Murphy. And if truth be told, it hasn't been a terrible day so far. Okay, it's not even one o'clock yet but the sun is shining so brightly I just can't be in a bad mood. I was well aware what day it was when I woke up ~ hard to forget. But it didn't weigh as heavy on me as I thought it was going to. I had my coffee and even did some cleaning. Scrubbing out toilets on Christmas morning,... but the ocd in me found it almost soothing to clean. It was something familiar and it distracted me. 

Now I am sat infront of the tv and I'm about to watch my annual "Call The Midwife" marathon. I watch every Christmas episode they made. It's not the same as being with my family but I love this show enough it satisfies my need to distract myself away from my daughters and granddaughter. As much as it can do,...

I'm sure it will hit me later. A scene from my tv show,... something will end up setting me off and I will probobly end up a puddle on the floor. But for now,... I try and remain positive.

After the year I have had,... I could be in a far worse place than I am today. I could still be homeless in BC,... so in light of that, I will try and remain positive by reminding myself that I have a roof over my head, hot and cold running water and heat. The cupboards are bare but thats not because I'm down and out anymore. It's because the weather hasn't let up and I can't get out to walk anywhere. So I may be alone without my family. But I do have Molly and Murphy (who is realing enjoying that sunbeam) and they have brought me a lot of joy to my life. No negatives with them.

So with this thinly layered bravado,... I am choosing peace over pain.

So Merry Christmas everyone.

And maybe on this day take a moment to reflect on your family,...

It really is a season for forgiving ~ so make that phone call,...