I was awoken at 5:30 by the nibbles of the kittens looking for their breakfast. I rarely get to sleep past 6 anymore. But I don't mind. Having these kittens has given me a life. Looking after them,... gives me a purpose and something to do during these boring days of nothingness. I am so sick of watching tv I can't even tell you how much,... but now that the snow is here, I won't be going anywhere now until spring. I am now stuck inside for the reamaining winter months,.... ugh,...
Yesterday I had to take Murphy to the vet. Even though it was cold, it was also clear so I was able to get their easily. I put a hot water bottle inside the cat carrier to keep the 2 cats warm. Then I bundled up and off we went. Murphy is fine. He was just not liking wearing the protective suit I had to put on him. The minute I took it off,... he got the zoomies and was fine. We all had a good laugh over that. Then when I put it back on him after the appointment? He went all sad and lathargic again. What a monkey-bum. He had me fooled into thinking he was sick. But they are both fine. 100% good. And as long as they stay healthy that will be the last of the vets appointments for a while.
When I woke up this morning, I did my usual morning routine. I fed the cats and turned the coffee on. I then wash my face and brush my teeth. Usually the coffee isn't quite done, so I open my front door and go out into the hall to look outside. It has a big window looking out over the parking lot/gazebo area. I have done this for years. It lets me see what the weather is like,... I don't know. It's just a morning routine I have done for years.
Anyway, this morning I opened the door and Murphy tried to escape so I kind of ran out into the hall and shut the door behind me quickly. So I wasn't immediately aware Tonya was standing infront of her door with her dog. We both looked at each other (we are 5 doors apart) I half expected her to come over and finally make that apology she owes me. But no,... she just stood there with that guilty look on her face and sheepishly looked down. She knows she is wrong and she knows I know she did everything. If she WASN'T GUILTY, then she should have come marching down here and screamed at me to stop accusing her on my blog!!! But she didn't. Because she is guilty as guilty can be and she knows it. She is now backed into a corner and needs to come forward and clear it all up. She needs to finally admit what she has done and apologize. But I could see by the look on her immature face that she is never going to apologize. I will never get rid of this woman unless I leave this building.
Here is an example of how her nasty phone calls to the police over the past 5 years has effected me. This morning (after I had seen Tonya), I scooped the litter boxes and then brought the bag down to the garbage room. It wasn't even 7 in the morning yet. As I was walking down the hall, I saw 3 police cars and and an ambulance come flying into the parking lot. Instead of thinking, "Oh dear, I hope noone is hurt or sick",... I think "Oh shit,... what has Tonya called them for this time?" And that makes me panic. I started to shake and got light headed and flew back to my unit ready to lock the door and not answer. (panic attack!) But, they weren't here for me,... but because of Tonya calling them over and over for stupid lies,... (she drew on my door,... she told me to wear a mask during lock downs,...) For the record once and for all ~ I DID NOT DRAW ON TONYA HALLS DOOR! That was her,.... she did it herself. But this is how she operates. Lies,... Lies,... Lies,... a little girl on a playground. Looking for attention.
I have found in the past that these 'visits' from the police come after she sees me somewhere. It's almost like she sees me and thinks "oh yeah, I haven't done anything to her in awhile so I should now" it's like seeing me, triggers her into doing something. So when I saw her this morning in the hall and then 20 minutes later the police show up ~ I have to admit I thought she had called them with a new lie. I paniced. I should not have to live this way. Fearful everytime a cop car pulls into our parking lot. All I could think was "What did she tell them now?". But in the end,... they weren't here for me. But it ruined my morning all the same. PANIC. This is what harrassing me with the police does,... but she doesn't care,... I'm sure she is proud she did that!
And this is where I dont' think she realizes the DAMAGE she causes people with her immature silly head games. It's a game to her,... It's FUN for her,... I have to live knowing the little girl down the hall can call the cops anytime and LIE! And not only lie,... GET AWAY WITH IT. But now that there is an on-going investigation on her, the police are now AWARE of her games. So even though factually I knew they know all about Tonya,... my body still reacted in a panic attack.
I can't live this way
I wish Tonya Halls would move,.... if she moved,.... my life would be ok. I can handle Darren Green and Mark Rathwell,.... but Tonya is relentless with her childish lies and gossip and I just can't deal with it anymore.
But I won't have to for much longer. As soon as all my 'end of life' stuff is complete ~ I am out of here.
How fucking sad the only escape from Tonya fucking Halls is suicide,....
And she doesn't even realize the damage she has done. She enjoys it,...
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