Sadness so deep I can't endure

I was out doing my laps yesterday. I ran into two women I knew sitting in the hall chatting. One commented "You look tired,..." I wouldn't disagree with her. I told her it was the new kittens getting up so early, smiled and moved on. But thats not true. The kittens haven't caused me any problems at all. The problem is not them,... it's stress. I am so miserable I have aged a great deal. I don't even know if my own children would recognize me right now. I look old,... tired,... stressed. All the hacking,... the harrassment form Tonya,... I just can't take it anymore ~ and I guess it shows.

I am NOT the person I used to be,..... 

(This was not written by me but found on Facebook)

Once a heart becomes too heavy with pain, it doesn’t cry anymore. It goes silent. Not because the hurt is less, but because there are no tears left to fall.

People stop explaining how broken they feel. They stop sharing their struggles. They stop hoping anyone will truly understand. They smile when they need to. They stay quiet when they are drowning inside. And they carry their sadness alone, like a storm trapped in their chest that never finds its way out.

Silence becomes their armor not because they are strong, but because they are tired of feeling unheard, unseen, and misunderstood. So they sit with the ache, day after day, holding pieces of themselves together, whispering prayers that one day the pain will soften, that breathing will feel lighter again, that living won’t hurt this much.
Your heart feels heavy right now, please know this you are not alone. Your silence is not weakness. It is the language of someone who has endured too much for too long. Even if you feel invisible, even if no one notices how hard you’re trying… your heart is still beating. And that alone is an act of bravery. Hold on, even if it’s only by a fragile thread. Your story is not over yet. Somewhere, someone cares more deeply than you could ever imagine.
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I don't agree that somewhere, someone cares more deeply than you could ever imagine,.... but,... it does explain my deep lonliness and sadness,....... and I just don't want to endure this anymore,.....