I am making plans. Big plans. After speaking with my cousing yesterday, he gave me hope. Now, I have hope that I can leave this horrible place behind and not have to die to do it.
I am moving to BC. The plans have not yet been made but the decision has. I fly to BC on June 30th to look for an RV to buy and a park to put it in. And once that is done, I fly home and sell everything - again.
The only bad new? I can't take Murphy and Molly. It would not only cost way too much to fly them (about $1500 each) but I can't see them having a good time doing it. It would be too traumatizing for them. I will have to rehome them. But with the excellent vet care they have been given and their lovely sweet temperments I know I can find them a good home before I go.
I don't want to do that, but sometimes in life you just have to do what you have to do to move forward for a better life. They are still kittens and will survive just fine. I'm not happy about this but needs,... must and all that. Maybe whoever takes them will allow me to watch them grow up by keeping me posted on their lives.
In life, sometimes you have to do things you dont' want to do in order to get ahead in other areas. And this is one of those times. I feel so guiilty but I really don't have a choose. There is no life for me in Ontario anymore and if I stay here I am sure I will end up homeless again as the cost of living and the horrible bullying in this building have forced me to leave.
I have to do what I have to do ~ to survive.
I dont want to die. That was only because I couldnt survive. I just was getting priced right out of living here in Ontario. MAiDs was my only escape. But this? this could be my alternative.
So I am starting a completely new mind set. HOPE. From here on in I have hope. That is something I haven't had in a very long time.
So I have decided to start a new blog. I will keep this one for my daily venting as it really does help to get it all out so I dont have to sit with it all day long. The new blog will be all about my new life and the jouney I will follow.
It's on the "Medium" blogging platform as I wanted something brand new. I am not familiar with this blog site so I am finding it hard to find the actual link to my blog posts and not the link to my editing page. So I'm not sure if this link will even work. But if it does,... this is my new blog.
Lets hope,... for once in my life,.... I can escape this poverty
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