I just want to die

I am never getting a doctor. I had made a bunch of calls a few weeks back in yet another attempt to get health care. Someone called me today to say there is a doctor accepting new patients,...

But it's in another town,.... and it's a male,.... and his name is so long I couldn't even pronounce it. Indian. I do not want a male doctor. I especially don't want a male indian doctor and before you go saying I am racist,... I had a very bad experience with a male indian doctor and I will never go back to another one.

THAT is what this province can offer me????? A first year doctor in antoehr town I can't even get to???? It's laughable at this point.

So I give up. I don't even want a doctor now. I am too far gone anyway. My pain is so severe I just want to die now.

If I had gotten proper help after I got hit by the car, I think I would have been ok. But not having a family doctor fucked me.

So now I just want to die.

I know the way,... I know the date,...

Fuck you Canada _ I hate that you threw me away and left me to rot on my own when i coulnd't take care fo myself anymore.

Fuck you all for leaving me to struggle

FUCK YOU!!!!!