This may be a long rant,...
Where to begin? The police and ambulance were here again yesterday. I have been communicating with this person (to be honest I don't even know how i got connected with them as I leave so many messgages now with organizations just to get help) But they referred me to anther organization which called the police on me. (after learning I'm ending my life) But instead of asking how or when or how serious? They just assumed and came a running lights and sirens,... nice. Instead of asking why I am doing this they just assume I am having a mental breakdown and want to cart me away,... passs the buck. They cant see "I cant look after myself anymore" They only see "suicide"
I am so done with this 'victim blaming mentality" that I am considering moving my plans up and ending my life sooner. I asked Ontario Housing for help. I think I may have made a complete post on this blog of my email to housing. The answer back was brutal. Not only will they not help but now I am the one to blame.
So I'm done with Ontario Housing. I will not live here anymore. They not only do not have my best interest at heart but in asking for help they have completely turned the tables and are now saying I called Arseen something and I started it. For the truth, (and they have it on cctv!) I went to walk into the common room past Arseen, as you have to pass areseen, as he sits his walker right infront of the double doors and doesnt' move. So I looked at him ~ and he looked at me, as if to say,.. "Why you going in there to talk to housing???" He knew it was about him. So I said "Yes, I am trying to get you removed from this spot right infront of the doors" (this is not me being petty he challenges me every time I have to get past him and I just dont want to deal with him) and he lost it and started saying "Go to hell,... blah, blah,blah" I even wrote in S****'s email that "I finally lost it and yelled back" but she used that against me and blamed me for the whole thing. Her email was so "correct" She just thinks there is no problem ~ I am just being a Karen. Not in exact words of course - that would be illegal. But a very politically correct and legally iron clad email back to me was just letting me know I will never be getting help from Ontario Housing. They are too inept at what they do to even see the truth. They are so REactive rather than PROactive all they seem to do is stamp out fires. Clueless to the bullying that goes on around here. And not just to me,... to many, many people who just hide in their units for peace. I am the only one who is Irish enough to call them out,... but that was a mistake,...
I don't feel safe here. But they wrote a memo (which I had to basically tell her what to say) and of course that did NOTHING. I knew it would do nothing. She doesnt' live in this world and cannot understand how nasty and evil people can be. She does not want to get involved so she PASSED THE BUCK to me. YOUR the problem
I didn't even entertain an answer to her. I informed her I will no longer be communicating with her at all and not to contact me again. I will instead get a lawyer and you can deal with them.
And then I called a lawyer. And I am awaiting their call back.
Ontario Housing is absolutely CLULESS to the abuse going on in this building and more dangerous,... they don't want to know,... so silence and putting their ostridge heads in the sand is easier,... let the victims of the bullies suffer and the bullies win. Much easier,...
Housing employees have no understanding of living in poverty and all the other abuse thatcomes with living in this building. They are lily white princesses who drive nice cars and have nice lives,.... they also have far too much control over our lives. One bad mood and we are threatened with their infamous eviction. WAY TOO MUCH FUCKING POWER. And when is it ok to use a persons HOME as leverage for bad behaviour. Or what they call bad behaviour. I call it being ignored for so long you lose it and have to have a loud conversation to even get their attention. They literally ignore every phone call and do not call you back. So after 3 or 4 attempts to hear from them and still get ignored??? I get frustrated and loud and *poof* now its my fault. Bad behaviour????? Oh we must evict you,...
The Karen is now gone and they get no consequences.
They don't seem to have to ansswer to why they never get back to us until we have to get mad. They dont seem to have to answer to anything,.... but we fart too loud and we lose our homes.
I refuse to live this way. I am being bullied here and I refuse to be bullied any longer.
Unfortunately, as a poor person you have no choices. You can't move out of here - your trapped. So the only escape is death. I have been saying this for 5 years now.
And death it shall be as I am fed up and exhausted from trying to cope on my own with no help. I physically cannot do it anymore. I am exhausted!!! And in too much pain to even think anymore.
Roll up the date on my plans now,... as I'm so angry at being so disposable and USED. They do not want to deal with Darren Green so they do nothing. He gets to smoke in his unit. Another tenants bad behaviour wins while the rest of us have to go outside. They just don't want to deal
I have been cyber bullied by Tonya Halls for over 5 years and got zero help. Not even the police could help as she didnt' actually 'threaten my life' but even after telling housing - nothing was done.
But if you rasie your voice or dare to lose control and say fuck - your evicted.
Fuck you Ontario Housing I dont need this shit
Death sounds so easy and peaceful right now.
Infact, Death sounds wonderful,.....
Roll on plans,... I have had enough,.... a person can only TAKE so much,....
No comments:
Post a Comment