It happened again. I opened up Facebook to find that dreaded "are you ok" popup. I am getting so fed up of seeing this. People will take the time to do that,... but not one person will ever pick up the phone and call,... or email,.... or text,... they do nothing.

Absolutely fucking nothing

I am a train wreck. I am spiralling into a depression I don't think i can escape. I am losing my benefits,... I am not functioning anymore due to my mental health. Instead I struggle,...

but noone calls,...

noone emails,...

noone texts,...

noone even remembers i exist.

To be a "nobody" and I mean an invisable "nobody" is awful.

Day after day I wake up knowing I will not speak with anyone,... I will not see anyone,... I will be alone,... until the day I die,...

How did i get here?

My heart is broken and I really don't have the energy or motivation to want to live any longer.

If my family wanted me,...

If ODSP would stop threatening me with taking this benefit away,...

If I had any friends,...

I could probobly cope. 

But being alone day after day knowing you are not liked and noone even remembers your alive just eats away at your soul.

I don't know how much more of this i can take

I can't even find a place to bury myself I'm so unwanted,...

There is no place for me on this planet - dead or alive.

That is the saddest fucking thing I have ever heard.

What a fucking loser