What kind of country does this to a 61 year old disabled person??

So I got a letter Friday from the government of Canada that says "The organization listed below (ODSP/Family benefits Act) has asked the Canada revenue Agency to apply your tax refunds and dertain tax credits against a debt you owe them"

So not only has ODSP cut me off ~ they are now coming after me for my debt to them.

I thought they had reinstated me but now they are asking for paperwork I dont' have and can't provide. It's all gone. I don't have any paperwork of any kind anymore. It all got thrown out before I left for BC. And I can't get reinstated without this paperwork.

So not only am I now living off of JUST CPP of $851.51 ~ but now ODSP is asking the government to step in and take MORE away to pay my debt to them.

I give up.

How do you win? How do you get ahead? Because from where I'm standing it feels like they are intentionally making my life as hard as they possibly can pushing me to suicide!

I just spent almost all of my settlement money "buying" back my life only to realize that I can't keep it. This government is hell bent and determined to leave me destitute. I AM ALREADY STRUGGLING! I can't live on less,...

My rent break organization didn't get my application in on time as I didnt' do one as I thought I was going to be in BC and didn't need one. Now,... this leaves me with NO RENT BREAK which means I now have to pay market value for my apartment starting August 1st ~ only days away. Market value is MORE than I bring in a month.

Market value is MORE THAN I GET A MONTH!

So right now I am sitting here overwhelmed.

I have just lost my dream of escaping this place and got forced right back into it,... but this time with nothing,... and now I will LOSE IT ALL AGAIN??

What kind of country is this? This government has me in a vise. Squeezing me. I have nothing!!!! Literally NOTHING!

Ontario Housing will not allow me to live here if I can't pay rent. And starting in August I make LESS than my rent. So you tell me what to do????

I am so stressed. I can't sleep. I am so depressed because of it. My body has started to shut down. Give up. No longer function. 

What kind of country does this to a 61 year old disabled person???

I just need to die. I see no other escape and I refuse to lose everything again and be homeless,...

I think I'm worth more than that even if this government doesn't.

I will end my life before this government makes me homeless once again