Lost my ODSP officially and not getting it back - time to die

I happened to go into my government account today. I found a letter to me dated way back on June 4th 2025. I had never seen this letter until today.

ODSP has officially been taken away from me. My file has been 'officially closed' and I am no longer a recipient of the ODSP program in Ontario Canada.

So that is it,... I will be living on $851.51 for the rest of my life. No other financial help whatsoever.

So I have stopped buying things,... I have stopped re-doing my apartment. I am just going to lose everything I have just bought AGAIN when i can't pay rent and I get evicted.

I must be the most horrible monster in the world. Because noone can live on this amount ~ but noone seems to care,... a long as THEY dont' have to struggle on it - oh well ~ sucks for me but long as THEY don't have to be poor THEY can turn their heads and look the other way and pretend its' not happening,...But I can't do that. I am being forced to SUFFER threw it.

So I have made a decision.

I am not going to struggle any longer. I thought relief was coming in getting ODSP back but it's not. This is the last fucking straw of being INVISABLE

I am ending my life and I don't care who the fuck calls the police. If you are going to force me to live in such poverty I can't eat - then go ahead and call your fucking police.Make me suffer even more,.... you get a life but I have to go hungry,... but call your fucking police as thats all anyone knows what to do. They wont help me - but they will call the police. 

I refuse to rebuild a life just to have it taken away again in a few months.

NOONE can live on $851.51 a month and I have given up trying,...

I give up,...

I am ending my poverty once and for all. If noone cares enought to help then fuck you all

I hate my life,... and I refuse to be miserable one more fucking day

Thank you Ontario Canada for signing my death certificate.

You told what my worth was - and it was nothing

So if I'm not worth it noone will fucking care that I am gone

So angry and hurt right now I just want to be dead and that is my only goal now to end my life.

Roll on 2027 as I will be first in live to kill myself with the mental health criteria of MAiD

If I even fucking make it that far becasue right now,... that is way too far away and I just need to stop this ridiculous suffering NOW

There is no need for this poverty ~ but I am forced to struggle in it anyway

FUCK YOU ALL

I am done with the struggle

losing my ODSP was the last fucking straw that told me I am worth NOTHING to this world.

NOTHING ~ absolutely fucking NOTHING