I have completely given up now. Today I didn't even get dressed. I stayed in bed for most of the day. It is really hitting me now that I have lost EVERYTHING and I'm not getting it back.

I am depressed now.

I don't even care about the half-put-together furniture. I don't even want it now. i wish I could send it all back and get my money back. But I can't because it's in a million pieces on my floor.

I dont' want to do anything but lay in bed and stare at the tv or sleep.

I'm too old to start over,... and this proves it.

Please God,... I can't take one more day of this life 

Please ~ give me a break and send REAL help and MONEY or let me die and end this suffering ~ because I am seriously done and can't even get out of bed now