Come on Amazon!!

This afternoon ended up better than it started. I had a few phone calls from some resources around the community. The first one was from CRC (Community Resource Centre). And the second from a society that helps people get stuff they need when they find themselves starting over. She stopped by my apartment to meet me and give me a voucher for a bed - bedframe and kitchen table and chairs as well as some kitchen stuff and bed linens. So I was quite happy to hear from her. My OCD usually doesn't allow me to take used things but the mattress will be donated brand new from a store and the rest can all be washed/bleached down. In the end, I am just grateful for the help and will deal with my OCD when the time comes.

I also got to Zehrs to finally get some groceries. The woman from the CRC drove me herself. And from here on in she is setting up some volunteer transportation in the future. THIS will help tremendously as one of my biggest problems I have is having to walk everywhere. Getting driven will be a treat I am not used to. I think I can use them for grocery shopping and doctors appointments (which I guess I wont need not having a doctor!)

But then the evening took on a delivery run around again. Amazon - really??? The driver dumped my package on the newspaper stand in our very public lobby of Ontario Housing. Of course it got stolen!!!!

I was never even buzzed to know it was there!!!! So the 'chats' with Amazon began. I am now very worried as I have my big 55" tv coming tomorrow as well as a few other deliveries. How many will I actually receive? I feel like I will have to sit outside infront of my building all day long just to make sure they dont' dump them in the lobby again. It's Ontario Housing!!! We all live in poverty. of course it got stolen!!!! But I have other deliveries like my new furniture so I can't just waste my day watching out for Amazon. I have the woman from CRC coming again to help me with some forms. I can't sit in the lobby all day.

I am starting to think that I am cursed when it comes to deliveries.

I am starting to think that I am cursed in general right now,...

I tried to fill out an application to adopt a cat and guess what? You need a reference from someone and i am so hated I dont' have anyone who would do that for me. So I guess no adoption,... I guess hated monsters aren't allowed to have cats,.... It wouldn't even let me submit the application without a reference,...

I am feeling like everything is so heavy right now. I am trying to fight my own brain right now. I really dont' need the run around from lazy delivery men causing me to have my packages stolen.

Why can't one thing just go smooth and easy??? 

I need a break world,... I'm tired of everything having something go wrong,....