My team lost their game yesterday ~ badly. I hope this isnt' a sign of whats to come this season. But regardless how they play I will always be a fan. Manchester United has given me years of pleasure.
Another housing moment: I was doing laps and at the other end of the hall my neighbour was sat on her walker so I stopped to chat. We heard a tiny voice calling out. Turns out another neighbour had fallen in her bathroom and couldn't get up. She's 93. So I ran in and my neighbour got her husband and we managed to get her up. So sad. But apparently she is fiercly indepent and won't let her kids take her in. I get that for sure. Independence is extrememly important to me for sure. I wouldn't want to be a 'goose-berry' living in someone elses home either. I guess this is the downside to aging. Especially if your mind stays as sharp as a tack (like this woman's) but your body keeps letting you down. I worry about this as it's already starting to happen on a smaller scale. Old age is not for the faint of heart.
I put in yet another Amazon order for some cat stuff. But it never arrived when it was suppose to. Turns out the delivery driver did it again. Dumped it in the lobby and without alerting me took off. But heres the kicker,... Tonya found it and brought it up to me. TONYA. But because I was so grateful that someone found my package and took the time to bring it up to me,... I was actually grateful. We ended up chatting. Instead of telling her to fuck off - (I seriously just can't take anymore nonsense) I extended my hand and said "truce?" and she shook it. I have no interest in going backwards. I have no interest in drama or hatred. I just want to get on with my life. Considering she has been good since I got back and has left me alone I figured that deserved a truce. She has grown up and is being a descent human being. We will never be friends. But all I ask is that there is no more animosity. I just want peace. If this is a true gesture, then I am grateful and will accept it. Now if only Darren could do the same,...
I am still enjoying Murphy and Molly. I thought by now I would be frazzled and maybe even wonder if I had done the right thing. But I have. There is no doubt that getting 2 is much easier than having one. They play with each other and leave me alone to just sit and watch and enjoy them. I have taken anything breakable out and my livingroom is now a safe kitten nursery. I have no regrets and look forward to watching these two little rascals grow up.
I have an empty fridge and empty cupboards. It's not even money that is the problem. It's getting out and across the street to shop. Lately I have been feeling weak,... light-headed,... just off. I haven't had the confidence to go out as I feel like I might pass out or something. But now I have an empty kitchen so I have no choice. I have to get out today. The weather looks bright and sunny which is on my side. Having fibromyalgia really dictates how I live my life. Some days I'm capable of a lot ~ but other days I can't even get out of bed.
But today I will go out. I am desperate for groceries.
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