I WILL go to Vancouver anyway,....

I will lose out on my settlement - no case

But my plan has now changed.

I get off that airplane and I go right down to the lower east side and get a fatal hit of fentanyl and it will finally all be over

I am suppose to be in my retirement 

Instead I am in survival mode

I am too old,... too exhausted,... and too poor to go on

I am completely alone and expected to get rid of my whole apt myself 

No help - the mentally ill monster doesn't desereve it

It's time for fentayl

I already have the plane booked 

I now just wait